By TsalagiLenape Latest Reply 2011-09-18 08:14:48 -0500
Started 2011-09-11 08:43:34 -0500

I dont know maybe I am repeating myself on this subject. Yet since becoming a diabetic, twas only the first year I had support of some people. Yet I have never had the support of my family. Nor do I have any close friends anymore. I may have one or two perhaps. Not so sure as of now. Just feeling alone and sad. To where I want to cry but this isnt good cause it sends my BG up. No one to talk to. Where I can pour out my heart. So hard being alone and still struggling to be positive at least for my own sake. I love to walk, dance and etc but arthritis in the feet sometimes prevents that. Not sure what else to do. Just waiting to get started on my new adventure of college. I dont want to be a watering bucket, repeating peter or whiner. Yet dont know what to do. Feel very sad that husband of 16 years married together for 17 lists us in a relationship on Facebook but I have it we are married. So I have known since I became a diabetic I am not his priority at all anymore. Yet now with his recent back surgery and etc I am supposed to make him mine. Why? He has papers he is supposed to take care of…finally did 2 months later. Phone calls he could make…but leaves them for me to do. Saying how its my fault if I dont for I will be not f*cking him but us! Well after the status on his facebook what am I? I am not a wife. Nor anything but an accountant, housekeeper and driver. So now if I quit what happens? Who knows but its apparent I dont matter anymore to him. So going to get a shower, go out do my errands and work on getting positive somehow. Sorry if this sounds like a vent perhaps it is. I dont know. Just dont have no support. Yet would like to find a friend or maybe a support group. Have a great day!:)

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tabby9146 2011-09-17 09:25:50 -0500 Report

sorry you are going through this ((hugs)) I suppose when I get down, because my hubby doesn't support me with the diabetes, I better be thankful for how good he treats me most of the time, but this one area, it really hurts that I never had his support or anyone in my family. So many don't understand diabetes really. I hope things improve.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-18 08:14:48 -0500 Report

Well things will when I change them. Just like for instance I dont bother with their nonsense. Nor take it most especially when I dont feel well. Ugh! So they are learning what is allowed and what isnt. Tis my choice to take whatever. Well now they know what isnt. LOL So hugs and smile for it confuses the others. LOL

rebeccaeagerton 2011-09-15 14:51:43 -0500 Report

I feel your pain…I was in the same gloomy place with my ex husband. He figured that because it wasn't happening to him, then he didn't have to worry about it. Finally one day, it slapped me in the face if I didn't get out of the negative place I was in then I would eventually kill myself…either by my bad health or my own hands. I didn't want either, but what was I to do…I didn't know what to do. I enrolled in a free diabetic support group at the local hospital that meets twice a month. I got on a 2mg medication to help with the depression and mood swings. I started finding people just like me that I could develop friendships with that was supporting me just as I was a voice to give them support when they needed it. In this diabetes group, which is led by a nurse practitioner we not only discussed diabetes but also all aspects of our lives. It helps.
I got out of that relationship that was dragging me down in 2005 and met a great man in 2008, we recently got married Jan 2011. He makes sure I stay on track with meds, eating and my journal (it helps me to write everything down to stay o track)…there are people out there that will be great support for you. Just like what I have seen in this community. These people are strangers, but yet they are reaching out to me, you and others that need support, because in the end EVERYONE needs someone every now and again.
I am praying for you! Not everyone believes in prayers but I believe in the power of them and it always works for me…not always when I think it should, but it comes at the time when I need it the most.
Smile and think positively, you can do that for yourself and your inner body and mind will soak up that positive energy!

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-16 07:38:44 -0500 Report

Well that about sums up where I am at: in a negative place. Yet have plans to change it when other things come to fruition. When it does happen. Its going to be such a shock to the others. Yes these people start out as strangers become friends and in the end a whole new family extended has started. Out of mutual goals, respect, and love. So far I am getting drenched! LOL Hugs

Jan8 2011-09-15 08:44:41 -0500 Report

Hey Tsalag, we are always with you. I do understand how it feels not to be supported however when my husband could not walk well I figured well, if i can do something he can't i will do it. Finallly after years of being depressed that he had his own adjenda,he is giving back. I know you have a therapist however you may have a depressive disorder and sometimes this goes along with diabetes. It may be imparative that you find a good psychiatrist who can also design an antidepressant that is just for you. I found one and it helped me very much. Love and prayers to you and many blessings. I am not excusing his past behavior however if it is causing you great stress this relationship is not going to help your diabetes.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-15 08:56:38 -0500 Report

Well I did reply to use of meds for depression. Main thing is that I have issues and thus must be worked out. If doped up on meds for depression, which is usually how it affects me, I cant do anything which would make the depression worse. In the town I live in, most of these people are either working or on Drugs of the illegal kind and addicted to them. Some start out with prescribed meds which leads towards higher doses and addiction. With the plans I have for myself at least, not having control over what I can or cant do is not part of the plan. I have to control my diabetes along with the depression and issues of others i.e. husbands. I am a strong willed person on myself at least. I know what I want to do. Where I wish to be. So meaning hard work, sweat, and tears, I will do it. Yet mindful of my health along the way. For tis my diabetes and that is my issue to deal with. For like I have stated prior I have no support here at the home or otherwise. Now thanks to this website I do have the support of friends. Which more than likely in my case will become my other family! Yet with all the knowledge I am getting, I have an older sister recently diagnosed in the last month or so. Thus I am passing on knowledge and help to others. Like all of you are doing here. So Wanishi Wado Thank you for all of it. Hugs
By the way, I wont excuse my husbands past behavior whatsoever. Its on him to fix things. Yet I am patient however, I have set my limits and boundaries which is he aware of now. Have a great day!:) Love and prayers to all.

Jan8 2011-09-15 09:20:07 -0500 Report

Cheers to you for setting boundaries. That is just what I had to do. You are right. we can be a supportive family to you. It is so great you are also passing your knowledge to your sis. It's a great way to become friends (if she will listen to you). You sound like a very strong person !

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-16 07:41:44 -0500 Report

No Cheers to all of you! I have learned if I dont set boundaries and liimits the others will walk all over me and leave me there. Well that isnt a place I am wanting to be let alone stay! LOL Yes supporting others with knowledge and insight is what Life is about. I know many others who will call me up out of the blue for whatever reason. But they know I will help them if they help themselves and thus its all good. I have to be strong. For I have no one here to rely on at the house. God forbid, the day should come and I am in need of serious help. Hence working on getting better and out. Have a great day!:) Hugs

Bogy 2011-09-14 16:01:14 -0500 Report

Ts…Your story is very touching and sad.You have more than a platefull of issues on your shoulders.A number of issues you mention are signs and/or symptoms of depression.I would expect s/o to be depressed.Crying, sad mood, loss of interests,little energy/motivation,isolating yourself and feelings of helplessness and hopelessness meet many indicators of depression. Depression and other such ailments limit you ability to concentrate ,make decisions,may cause irritability,changes in sleep patterns, and even various physicial symptoms.I support what Dr.Gary has suggested,especially a support group that focuses on depression,return to mental health( know that sometimes a change in counselor/therapist may help). Your story did not include medication as part of you treatment. A group of new anti-depressents,SSRI"S, have been quite effective in reducing many of the symptoms you mention..Consider your options and remember you are not stuck,even though you may feel trapped.You have alternatives. Hope this helps.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-15 08:22:03 -0500 Report

As I am Native American, I do my best not to get hooked on other meds. Reason is that too many times in the past, I take the prescribed antibiotic for a ten day period but stops working for me after seven days. Also not in my nature to use meds for something i.e. Depression. For there is a reason why I am having it. Once I find the root, I find ways to work it out. Yes I do have bouts of depression but most of it is caused by my family. Husband's issues tends to deal with other drugs prescribed to him that he has used for his pain in the back i.e. surgery and etc. To the point where he has become addicted and thus makes my life hellish at times. Yet now after the surgery, his doctors have found this out. Which makes them highly strigent on giving him any. When one doctor (Primary Care Physician) medicates him, the other (back specialist) does not! So they are working in tandem. Plus the husband has found out who his real friends are and not. Who is there and etc. I do have a great therapist. He cancelled our last appointment due to court. Yet returned my call and rescheduled for this week. In the meantime, as chaotic as it may seem to others, I am thriving. For tis a challenge that keeps me moving forward and not dwelling on what I cant change. To work towards my goals one small step at a time. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. For all of it helps me remember where I am, what I need to do and being positive. Hugs

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-09-12 22:54:40 -0500 Report


I read your heartbreaking story with great sadness. I am sorry that you are feeling so sad and lonely. It is a very hard thng when your friends can't really be friends, and your husband is not being the person you married.

I hope that you will get support from the people who are able to gie it to you. The friends that you are still close to. Have you looked into any support groups in your area? That might be an idea to consider.

Also, I just have to ask. Have you thought about getting in touch with a mental health professional? This might be a good time to reach out for help in coping with the disappointment and loneliness that you are experiencing.

I am glad you are with us on Diabetic Connect. I hope you will stay in touch!


TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 07:52:10 -0500 Report

Yes I have a therapist. Which is ok but not the same as having a close friend or two to pour my heart out. None to keep my things secret and thus giving me the outlet I do need. As for the support group, there is one but tis where I am made to feel like an outsider aka alien. I cope as well as I can. Just think of all the negativity that is thrown my way, what the end results would be if I let it get to me. Which isnt going to happen. Not today nor does tomorrow look good. I am not going to be someone's victim or cop out let alone a scapegoat. Either way, I am working on what I must. Yet having a few setbacks i.e. not starting my college classes due to the recent flooding up North of me, does upset me. For I know the only one who can get me out of this hole is myself. Hence all the work, toiling and etc has come to nothing as of yet. Yet still focusing on the main goal, myself. Yet what others take for granted i.e. a mother or close friends, I dont. Since I have none. :( Yet I will move forward one way or another. Thank you Sincerely

Robin052 2011-09-12 22:28:23 -0500 Report

Hey sweetie, you're not alone when you have us. I know it's not the same and I am in the same boat. I have no family anymore and only 1 friend in this state. I live in AZ. She calls to check on me every few days because she knows how sad and depressed I can be. I agree with Debbiejf, let the tears flow..punch pillows..go in the shower and scream your head off or into a towel… Whatever works.. When it comes to men I am no expert for sure but(men close your eyes) they can be the biggest babies when they are hurting or in pain…OMG I stubbed my toe!!! Life's over, LOL… Gee, is that why I've never been married, hmmmm…

Just know we are here for you. I've been away from this group for far too long but I'm back baby! Talk to us…


TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 07:58:16 -0500 Report

Yes men can sometimes be like babies but so can some women. Then they wonder why they dont have whatever. Gee I dont know. Maybe you have put yourself in a place none other wants to be with you there. LOL Yes coming here helps more than anything thus far. Its great to know I can be me. NOT upsetting anyone with my rantings ravings and etc. That I will be judged on whatever. I know when I am depressed and the reason(s) why. Which surprises my doctors immensely LOL Yet only I can get myself where I want to be. Facing the melancholy and etc each time it happens is good. But crying isnt good for me. I become this creature (my wording) and thus I have no control at that time. I have no one where I can lay my head down and cry. Who will protect me while I am this way. Hence having inside for over four years, I know not good. But the other side is worse. Thus I am going to do whatever to get to where I wish to be. Those who want to be with me will have to earn it and work towards it. What they believe to be automatic isnt anymore. They have placed themselves in this realm of their own making. I am simply cutting my losses and moving onward to a better place and etc for my own sake. Hugs

jayabee52 2011-09-12 22:44:58 -0500 Report

SOME guys can be like that Robbin! Not ALL of us.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 07:59:23 -0500 Report

Agreed On that one. There are some women who make the word women or woman or mother that applies towards them make me cringe. Thinking they are in the same terminology as myself. Ugh! LOL

Debbiejf 2011-09-12 13:59:54 -0500 Report

I'm pretty sure I speak for more than just myself when I say let the tears flow and we will be your bucket ♥. Acutally we can do what others cannot because we are dealing with a lot of the same issues not just the diabetes. The man I am with now and have been with for the past 8 years also does not deal with a lot of things that he should as far as papers and phone calls. When I first met him he didn't even fill out his own checks at the grocery store! I set him straight letting him know it made him look ignorant and illiterate when he asked the clerks to do it for him, he was just being disgustingly lazy. If you have it in you tell your husband the same thing that if he doesn't deal with his own papers and phone calls it makes him look weak and incapable to whomever the companies are that sent him the papers, and the calls he needs to make should be made by him. As for you…we all embrace you and will show you the love and support you for ANYthing you need or want :). Will you be my friend?

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 08:05:36 -0500 Report

Yes I will be your friend and all of those who are blessing me right now with their words of support kindness and thoughts. I have told him. He is at the point of usually not listening. Well pretty soon he will realize what I mean. I am no longer going to hold his hand. Not after yesterday morning. Hence I am going to do what I must for myself. Tis my own responsibility as well as my own happiness. I am no longer giving him the control or power to hurt me. Hence I may be alone in this house, but I will be happier. As for the bucket of tears, I cant afford to cry. Why? Due to my BG's shooting thru the roof literally. Like in the 700's. Have to control what I eat and thus how I react. Not easy but working on it while trying to get my BG's back to normal range i.e. 100's where lately they have been in the 200 and 300's. Yet it takes time and the control I will achieve. Hugs

nanaellen 2011-09-12 13:59:41 -0500 Report

NEVER EVER FEEL ALONE!! Just go outside look up to the stars and the moon and always remember their is someone somewhere that is looking up at the same stars and the same moon and feeling EXACTLY like you are right NOW!!!! NEVER GIVE UP HOPE!!! The sun WILL come up tomorrow and things ALWAYS get better!! Feel free to "vent" here anytime it doesn't mean you are weak or anything like that!! I "vent" here ALL THE TIME!! This IS the ultimate support group!! Where are you from "up north"?? I'm in R.I. And there are many wonderful people on this site that would be glad to have a new friend!! Just NEVER feel alone!! I'll be thinking about you in my prayers!! Your friend, Ellen :)

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 08:11:39 -0500 Report

I am never truley alone since I walk with Creator. Yet tis the human aspect of being alone. Having someone to hug and make me feel safe and loved. Not a burden or a whipping boy let alone a maid or driver. I am in Pa as of now. Yes I vent but I dont want to bleed a spleen either. Too many so called friends have told me that is all I ever do anymore all the time. Yet I have an open heart spirit ear and mind. I do so for them hence that is what I thought family and friends do for each other. Yet have been told to shut up. Which is why I have no one here. Its either I do for them they yell at me but never say nothing. For they dont want to hear it nor care to. Which is such a shame since I still care for them. Yet cutting my losses and going to keep on moving forward. One day they will have a need, and I simply wont be there. May the Creator bless them. Hugs

Debbiejf 2011-09-13 18:31:21 -0500 Report

Just so you know, I also live in Pa. in northwestern Pa. in Mercer County. I'm so happy for you that you will be starting school this week! Not only will it help you move forward but also give you a distraction to keep your mind occupied :). My geographical location is pretty much midway between Erie and Pittsburgh.

Kerstin Lujan
Kerstin Lujan 2011-09-13 16:16:04 -0500 Report

Wow I know exactly what you mean!!!when my 14yr old & husband come home it's time for me to "serve" as mother & wife. It used to not bother me,but now i need love,care, & attention , maybe a hug once in a while, I too don't have a close friend that I can truely poor my heart out to. I do love my family and at the same time I feel so alone,worrying about my sugar levels,overeating,being alone all day,(except the grocery store & the gas station—(I'm a real "social butterfly" LOL). As previously said-you are not alone here—people here DO care, DO pray for you,pore your heart out on line w/us !!!! that's what I'm doing…l Hope i didnt bring u down further,but you are NOT ALONE on the dc—Love, your friend, Kerstin

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-14 08:17:46 -0500 Report

LOL That is true about mother and wife. Yet daughter is slowly coming around. Yes I agree the support thus far is Fabulous! Hence I keep coming back! LOL Hugs

margokittycat 2011-09-12 12:07:30 -0500 Report

I have to agree with pixsidust, get the book it is great. Call your local doctor or hospital and see if there is a dibetic group in your area. They are all over the place, they usually meet once a month and you can get support and help there and you'll make a lot of really good friends. I have been in one since I was 11 and even though I moved I got into a new one here but every friend I had from my original group is still a friend and we talk all the time. You also have your family here and there is always someone on the sight. Your husband sounds like my exhusband and did not want to do anything and pushed it on me and I did it. He found out when I left him how screwed he was. Don't let yours do the samething. He needs to pull his own weight to. I know he just had surgery, but he is not parelized or dead there for he can help. Take care and we are here for you.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 08:14:39 -0500 Report

The diabetic group makes me feel like an outsider aka alien. The family is nonexistent. Its my doing for them, and they dont do crap for me unless I do twice as much for them to get any kind of whatever. Yes my husband will find out when I am gone. For he will be in a canoe without a paddle. Oh well tis his choice. His surgery was in May, he can walk, but doesnt want to help me whatsoever. His choice. I will walk alone without him. Hugs

margokittycat 2011-09-13 09:11:32 -0500 Report

I know I have said it before, but I think maybe you should seek some counseling. It is not good for you or your diabetes to keep everything bottled up inside. And not having anyone to talk to makes it even worse. Why do you feel like the dabetic group makes you feel like an outsider or an alien? I know it is hard I have been there before, my family is the same way other than my oldest niece and my current husband and all of our children and his family. It took me years to find the family though. I always had my diabetic group but there were somethings that did not relate to diabetes you just don't feel like letting the world know about. So I do understand. Take care of you and keep your chin up. When you start school I hope that will help get your mind off things and put positive things in your life. But I really do suggest some kind of couseling just so you aren' a time bomb ready to explode by keeping everything inside.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 09:37:26 -0500 Report

Yes I have a therapist! He does somewhat help. As for the group, not sure of yet. So busy with things I am not sure when they meet right now. Just trying to focus on getting to school to move forward. For with the schooling and hopefully a job I can move out and forward. Away from the negativity. In the meantime doing what I can. By the way I "explode" on cleaning on my house! LOL A negative into a positive.

margokittycat 2011-09-13 14:08:07 -0500 Report

I am glad to hear that you have a therapist. And that you explode on cleaning the house. Schooling to beable to move forward and get out of that negative enviroment is a good thing. If you need to do it sooner there are organizations that can help you with that and with finding a job while you go to school.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-13 15:41:28 -0500 Report

Well the one is actually helping me. Paid for the schooling uniforms books. Just found out since we didnt start last night we do so on Thursday night! Yay! :) Hugs

pixsidust 2011-09-12 08:20:34 -0500 Report

I wish I had the right answer. I by nature want to fix everything. I appreciate your being hurt. The cold harshness of your spouse magnifies the aloneness. He is quick to lay blame on your relationship issues and his lack of commitment because you have faults and short comings if you do not take responsibility for his responsibilities. There is a book that may help you with this dynamic called "Love Must Be Tough" by James Dobson. It sounds like if you do not act on this you are headed for a downward spiral. I really recommend this book. Meanwhile my heart goes out to you. What tribe are you from and how far back in your heritage?

Can't say it enough to get the book! You can find it on

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-12 08:35:53 -0500 Report

You have nailed it on the head. His responsibilities is to lay it on me and if it goes wrong I am the only one to blame. As for going on a downward spiral…I am doing my best not too for If I do he wins. The only set back today is no school due to the flooding up north of where I live. Husband has issues and thus negates them to me. So now I negate them to nothing. For they have no meaning to me at all. It makes him mad to see me use the negativity to fuel my positiveness. It makes him mad I am not his victim. Oh well today isnt good and tomorrow isnt better. LOL Hence I am striving to move forward. Thank you Hugs

robertoj 2011-09-12 02:00:32 -0500 Report

It makes me sad how harsh some people are to the ones they love. That is their problem and they are the ones in misery even if they are in denial. You are the one that is important; you need to feel loved and appreciated. It is painful and the inability to set healthy limits has left you in the position to be damaged. You need all the help and support you can get. Use the members of this site to help fulfill the need. Especially the women as there are a lot of them with similar experiences. I love my wife so very much. I have stood by her through extremely trying times and she has been with me through hard times. I wish everyone valued their loved ones. God bless.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-12 06:29:43 -0500 Report

That is so far the main thing keeping me going. Hope! That there are others who understand not sympathize or empathize with me. I keep on believing that there are those few and rare ones who know what I am going thru. Does it hurt? Yes! Does it make my life harder? Yes! But I know that in time, when I am moved on, the ones left behind will be dumbfounded for not having a clue to why. That is on them. I am going to survive and move forward. For if I dont, they win! Which isnt something that I can let happen. Either they want to be a part of my life or dont. I am not asking nor expecting least of all demanding. I am not perfect yet do my best to do better. To show by example. Yet now I am done. Tis their choice where they will fall when I do move on. Thank you for your kind words. I may be damaged goods perhaps but I will become stronger and thus better. I hope anyways. Hugs

robertoj 2011-09-12 16:47:20 -0500 Report

A lot of people want sympathy but we need answers and sometimes just to be heard. It has been my experience that those that are honest and don't try to sugar coat it are he kindest. God bless.

MEGriff1950 2011-09-11 20:22:19 -0500 Report

TslagiLenape, I hurt in my heart for you. That deep pain when you have a spouse and still feel lonely is one I went through many years ago but reading your post brought it back. Some areas have diabetic support groups you might call your doctors office or your county health clinic to locate one near you.
I would like to recommend a book that I read that really helped me a lot it is names "Boundries." Henry Cloud and Peter Tounsend wrote it, they are both Christian psychologists. Even if you are not Christian they have some great adivce that might help you. You can skip over the Christian parts. I found one at a used book store and most libraries carry the book.
I hope and pray that your life turns around soon.

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-12 06:33:19 -0500 Report

The diabetic groups around here make me feel like an alien. An outsider. I am a Native American Christian. I have diverse beliefs yet honor all. I am blessed to know that I have the Creator. Yet at times often more than not I am human and the need to connect with another human is stronger. To feel that I am not alone. I will look for this book hope to find it. Otherwise, I pray and move forward. Wanishi aka Thank you for your kind words and thoughts. The Creator will help those who help themselves. Which I hope I am doing when I start my college classes tonight. Hugs Temi

MEGriff1950 2011-09-12 10:26:29 -0500 Report

I very much understand how you feel with the Native heritage, I am only 1/4 Seneca but feel my Native roots deeply. One thing that I got out of this book that as long as I still had resentment and anger toward my ex-husband he still owned me. That concept is well explained in the book. Finally with God's help I let go and forgave. Later my ex had many health issues. His last Thanksgiving and Christmas we (our children and I) made very special for him. Then 2 weeks before his death I arranged a picnic at a lovely park as kind f a good-bye for him and our children and grand children. Those 3 times hold special meaning to all of us. "Boundries" had such an impact on my life otherwise I could not feel free of the years of resentment and anger.
God bless you Temi,

Gemm 2011-09-11 09:50:52 -0500 Report

I relate to what you are saying and this is one more where hitting the "like" button doesn't seem appropriate and an "oh wow" or "so sorry" button may be more appropriate. I do hit the like button for being courageous enough to share this with us. The worst feeling in the world is to feel all alone in the one place we should feel loved, cared for and safe. Grateful that I don't feel this today with my husband but have had it in the past with other relationships including growing up. As for having to do things because your husband doesn't bother I really think that's a male thing sometimes (sorry guys but I really do think this at times). My husband has always done that as well, though now at least I do have something else to blame it on since his stroke. Take care of yourself first and, as difficult as it can be, try to find somewhere to cultivate some friendships as it can be a real lonely life being alone without them. Been there too and know how hard it is. We here can be a great support but I find it much easier today having friends f2f that I can go to as well.

HUGS to you and good luck

TsalagiLenape 2011-09-11 14:17:17 -0500 Report

Thank you Hugs back

sheriden 2011-09-12 01:48:35 -0500 Report

I am going through this now and know what you are going through, Being lonely with someone is worse than when you are alone. Dose this make sense? I feal for you and pray things get better for you.

Morning Sun52
Morning Sun52 2011-09-12 18:41:52 -0500 Report

Hello. as a native american have you tried Powwows as a way to make new friends. and try some personal counseling. I have had diabetes for several years and its ups and downs do follow quite closely to my up and downs with depression. You are never alone and yet when you feel the worst it seems everyone close is more down than you and you spend all your time giving and not getting. In order to "fill your cup" you need to take care of yourself and you may need help to identify those needs. I sure did. For a long time I took care of the house, child, husband, and all that went with it. Now I have a good friend who will listen to me no matter what and I have a well rounded child who is a fantastic adult and gift from the Creator. I was also able to get really good friends from attending local powwows and becoming closer to my Spirit Guides. Use this site to vent to us. the caretakers in us will try to just listen and not offer too much advise. But maybe one or two of the suggestions will work for you

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