Numbers and Esteem

By GabbyPA Latest Reply 2008-10-26 09:43:39 -0500
Started 2008-10-24 01:13:04 -0500

Barry has posted several videos in the "Watch and Listen" section that deal with some of the critical views we take of ourselves as humanbeings in relation to our numbers. It was very eye opening to me as I realized that I was doing this to myself.

First, it came to mind that we TEST our levels every day. Do we pass of fail? What a mind set we have. Now I CHECK my numbers and use them to tell me what I have to do next. This way they don't condemn or validate me. They are tools that tell me what I must do before I choose the check my numbers again.

Then there is equating a good number with being a good person. A bad number means you are a bad person…no way. Doctors often make us feel this way, so it is no wonder that we face more depression than most people. Have you gone to your doctor with less than wonderful numbers and they tell you that you are being non-compliant (a stubborn person who won't follow directions). When you know that you have been working hard to manage your diease. How rough is that, and it really doesn't make us want to go back.

There are times when we are doing everything right and our numbers are still out of wack. I am trying to adjust my thinking and realize that I am doing the best that I can do, and that if my numbers are not what I desire, it doesn't mean that I am a bad diabetic. I am not a bad person because my numbers might reflect something going on.

Just the same way, I am not a better preson than someone else if my numbers are good. It just means that I am in a good place, but not better than someone who is struggeling more than maybe I do.

Our esteem comes from who we are, not what a number tells us we are. If we can find that understanding and hold it close in our hearts, things like depression, anxiety and frustration can become things of our past.

3 replies

GabbyPA 2008-10-26 07:06:17 -0500 Report

I just had a bout with testing my new thinking on this yesterday. I started really high and immediately started beating myself up. I stopped and just regrouped to get my focus on right. So far it has helped and I am back into numbers I want.
This is a hard concept to grasp. Do any of you have ways that you accomplish this level of peace with yourselves?

Anonymous 2008-10-26 08:07:18 -0500 Report

You cannot beat yourself up all the time. If you know you did something wrong just regroup and think about what made you do it. If you have done everything right and are still high you have to ananlyze things to see what may have caused it. For me since I am getting better control everyday is my pain. If I sit with heating pad on all day, I am not in pain but if I get up and stay up too long or do too much here comes Mr. Pain again. But I do not like to sit all the time so I force myself to get up and do things until the pain gets too bad. Then it is back to special heating pad. But I have learned what my limits are and just how far I can push it. If I know I need to do something physical I try and plan it around a pain med time and it has seemed to work some.

GabbyPA 2008-10-26 09:43:39 -0500 Report

Planning, yep...that is one of the best things to help. Things don't always go as planned, but at least if I have one, I am on the right track. Besides, I have plan A-Z...25 back up plans. Sounds good to me! LOL