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By mustangpeg Latest Reply 2011-08-14 22:20:53 -0500
Started 2011-08-07 11:09:04 -0500

First, I want to say how glad I am to be a part of this wonderful community. It is great to have a place to connect with others that are coping with the same issues. I took a trip to Hawaii a few years ago and took an airplane tour of the island. the pilot landed on a smal airstip in the middle of the ocean and said this was the "Leper Colony'. Is run by some priests and no visitors allowed. They drop food and supplies from this small airstip and the Lepers have no contact with outside world. I thought of the bible story about the Lepers and then thought, with Diabetes, I am like them. We have a stigma in society, no cure , and feel like outcasts most of the time. So I wanted to know how Y'all, Sorry I'm in Texas,feel about this. Do you feel like the Lepers and how do some of you cope with the daily problems of the diease? I myself still find it hard to accept, after 4 years. For the first few years I was in such denial that I wouldn"t check my sugar because if the reading was too high, then it would ruin my whole day and make me very depressed. I am glad to say it has gotten better with time but I still struggle. Am I alone or are there others out there. Please share and thank you for being here and just caring.

42 replies

Mickie G
Mickie G 2011-08-11 03:13:04 -0500 Report

I feel like you have taken a page from my journal. I feel very much the same. I often feel like it is just too much bother, and worried that others felt like I was a pain in the bottom to include or be around. Luckily I have family and friends that remind me that I have plenty to live for and that I am wanted and no bother. I pray often and found this great web site of supportive people.

cottoncandybaby 2011-08-09 21:49:56 -0500 Report

There are so many millions of diabetics in this country now, that there is no reason to feel like an outcast, unless there is a specific incidence where a person has deliberately said something to you to make you feel inferior because of the diabetes. Almost everyone that I happen to talk to these days have it themselves…I have been made to feel like an outcast more from being Jewish, than ever by having diabetes. That's why I love this site, there is unconditional love and support! We all have our good days and our bad days, but try to stay positive and surround yourself with positive, supportive people!!

anderson74 2011-08-09 18:16:41 -0500 Report

i understand just how you feel. i feel like that now where i am still in denial as we speak. yes it is very depressing. it is nice to know it is a community that have others that are coping with the samething. so far as being alone and feeling like leper you are not alone so you do not have to feel like that. god bless.

margokittycat 2011-08-09 13:41:32 -0500 Report

You are not aloneand should not feel like a leper. I know it takes time to get use to it and adjust and then to get friends and family to adjust and help is hard. I was diagnosed just before I turned 10 when I was younger I at the time hated everyone for giving me this disease. I never went to friends houses or to birthday parties because why? I could not eat the cake and ice cream so what fun was that? I also had a bad home life with a mother who married and divorced several times in my childhood and had one bastard of a stepfather who sexually molested me so to get back at my mom and him I ate everything I was not to eat and ended up in the hospital several times due to it. My mother finally divorced him and my new dad came in the picture and is the only real father have have known my entire life my biological father claims my brother but not myself or my half sister and we each have kids that he does not even know. after highschool I started some serious counsoling and it was rape counsoling my mom said it never happened to me and I was lying. We have not been close since my DAD "stepfather" believed me and knew I was not lying but my mother who is trained in the field of this still does not believe it and the abussive marriages weren't a clue to here either. Hang in there, things are getting better in the world when you can go out and eat and lots of places have diabetic friendly foods on the menu and some even have desserts. Let your friends and family help you and help them understand what your going thru and what they can do to help.

mustangpeg 2011-08-11 08:54:14 -0500 Report

I am so sad to hear about your lack of childhood and the terrible things that have happened to you.You know, I think there should be training required or at least have to have a license to be a parent. You have to have it for everything else in life but the most important job in the world requires nothing. I think of the impact that that lack of responsibilty as a parent can have on their child's life. I deal with animal resucue on a daily basis and I see animals that are starved to death, because owners take no responsibility for them and it sickens me. Same thing with children in bad situations. I'm so sorry for all your pain you have had to indure but your here and you are a better person and that has probably made you stronger. Thanks for sharing your story and know that there are some good people in this world,you being one of them. God bless.

margokittycat 2011-08-11 09:23:49 -0500 Report

Thank you for the encouragement it means a lot. I fought to over come so much bad in my child hood but it made me see that I did not want my kid's to grow up like that and I did not want to be a parent like my mother was thankful, my aunt helped me a lot and she is the reason I am still here and have grown so much in my life. GOD REST HER SOUL. She past away at 56 years of age last year in May I was a reck for a long time. Although she lived in Kansas were I am originally from and I in Nebraska we talked on the phone several times a week and emailed daily. I miss her so much because the only person in my family that talks to me now is my niece who is 21 and getting married next summer. God Bless you and thank you.

Sidehack 2011-08-09 04:15:54 -0500 Report

Nope..not like diabetes at all! You see, the toes and legs of a leper fall off randomly, whereas with diabetes they are systematiclally removed. Sorry about the black humor.
I don't feel any stigma about being a diabetic. (you want stigma? try hiding alcoholism from your employer, …after employer, …after employer.)
Diabetes is just another of life's compromises. I could just as easily be dieing from cancer, lupus, or heart disease etc.
Actually, my diabetes forces me to live a healthier lifestyle. I am happy and I enjoy life a lot more. I know I'm dieing and worry about the complications I face; but just for today I'm going to do my best to have a wonderful day. Remember, you'll never get out of this world alive! (About Hawaii, was that the island of Molokai? and the story of Father Damien?)

mustangpeg 2011-08-09 08:31:38 -0500 Report

Yes, The island is Molokai and there are still Leper's there today. It was very strange to be there and think that something from the biblical time is still practiced in today's world. They are still shut off from the outside world and no visitors allowed there. It is very small island. The landing strip is only big enough for very small plane and looks like you are going to land in the ocean. When we turned the plane to leave there was a wrecked plane on the runway beside us that never took off. For someone afraid to fly this was disturbing.

lmkilday 2011-08-09 00:01:08 -0500 Report

I don't feel like a leper. Only God has the right to judge. Worrying about the judgment of people is a waste of your energy. Remember that no one can make you feel bad without your consent.

Diaschm 2011-08-08 22:46:34 -0500 Report

Did you read jim edwards reponse? I do not feel like an outcast either. I think this site is very open and really very supportive but you have to look into the site. Read the articles, view the videos ask questions and I think you will make good friends here. There are things worse than being a diabetic. Look around, people are dying of cancer. Come on , You might be depressed , ask you doctor if you are and what you can do to snap out of it. Maybe you should voluneer and try to help someone. I can tell you it will make you feel better to help someonelse. If you need insurance rad the NEWS ARTICLE at this site titled GETTING HELP FOR DIABETICS. That aricle will tell uou where to get financial help in your state. Welcome to your site.

keith01 2011-08-08 19:44:46 -0500 Report

hi mustang peg.i went thru the denial,why me,& the outcast.you know after all that i came out on top.why?i didn't judge them.peg,you are welcome here. you have friends here that care&we don't judge.welcome to D.C. hugs

mustangpeg 2011-08-08 21:08:56 -0500 Report

Thank you so much fir caring. I feel better just being a part of this community. Every one has been so positive and supportive even when I felt like an out cast. I don't feel that way any more and I's m glad about that. So thanks to you all for changing my life for the better.
God Bless

Auburn Bill
Auburn Bill 2011-08-08 19:09:06 -0500 Report

I kow how I was treated after my parking accident at work due to the diabets dropping to 47, driving away from the damaged cars! ONLY one person made me feel like an outcast, but I know God sent his angels to protect me! We must do what is necessary to prevent ssprading of deadly conditions,we are bery blessed to have only diabetes! Praise God, Grandpa Bill

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2011-08-08 12:01:17 -0500 Report

Nope. I do not feel like an outcast and I think I am past the "Why me?" There are many people with conditions that have a lot less control over their health and a lot less hope. I think of the kids here at camp this week. They are in the foster care system of the state. Their parents, both of them, have had all of their parental rights terminated, There is to be no more contact between these kids and their parents. Some of the kids here are siblings. Most are less than 12 years old. A local church has blessed them with this, "no worry" and "fun time". I know after this they go back to their own world.
Would I prefer not to have this? You bet, along with high BP, high cholesterol, SAD, depression and who knows what else, I would be happy to leave them at the door.

Flustrated 2011-08-08 10:54:49 -0500 Report

Wow! I only thought lepers were in the bible. I don't feel like a outcast bec I know from DC that there are people fighting this to. I have to go for a blood test and that gets me nervous bec I was 7.1 last time and I haven't been excercising and I am affraid it will be more. This is my fault and I don't want to add on any more medications. I have been fitting this a long time, first cholestral a few years and after fitting breast cancer diabetes showed up. I really like this site.

excard1970 2011-08-08 08:54:16 -0500 Report

I am not sure I have ever been labeled an *outcast* but I certainly feel like one among people who do not understand the needs of the diabetic. I hesitate to use the word ignorant because most people are well meaning. They don't understand why I eat a sandwich and leave the excess bread behind, or only eat a portion of a restaurant dish. I have a friend who loves desert and wants to share so I eat a little of it (VERY little).
MY main feeling about being an outcast has been with the medical personnel. When I was diagnosed 15 years ago my MD told me that within a month I would know more about the disease than he did. I had a GP doctor that told me I was fat (yes in those words) and that is the reason I was diabetic. She had been watching too many infomercials I think. The fact that my family tree is full of diabetics on both sides has had nothing to do with it.
A lot of feeling outcast for me is self-created. I try to hide taking blood tests and taking insulin half because of good social practice but also because I am trying to hide it.
I know this is rambling but I hope it helps.

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2011-08-08 12:08:33 -0500 Report

Yep, it was rambling, but worth it. A lot of the problem is education and I offer to explain it, sometimes whether or not they want to hear it. Once I was in Mc D's and had a double quarter pounder (no cheese). I threw away the bun. A little girl about 6 came over and told me I should not waste the bread! The mother was horrified! I smiled, told the girl I had diabetes. The mother was there by then. So I explained it to both of them. I told the girl how I tested my sugar and asked the Mom if it was okay to show her. she agreed, I did, and she thanked me.

Deaconess Jane
Deaconess Jane 2011-08-08 20:43:26 -0500 Report

Jim, you've given me the perfect opening to ask a question or two and get the help of the wonderful people in this group. I may have the chance to speak to a Diabetes Support Group that meets at the hospital where I provide chaplaincy services. The topic is: "Advanced Care Directives and accepting chronic illness diagnosis." First question: Is an Advance Directive (living will, Power of Attorney) document for health care something that you have in place or are thinking of completing? Second questions: How do you handle all the challenges having diabetes includes? I'd love to hear questions, comments, stories or whatever anyone is willing to share. Thanks in advance for your help with this.

jladytiger1979 2011-08-08 08:25:35 -0500 Report

I feel very welcomed here. I've felt "outcast" most of my life. Not because of diabetes but because I was a bigger than everyone else. At times it wasn't even by much but kids can be cruel. When I lost a lot of weight at one time in my life. And as this "beautiful" person I noticed A LOT more attention from everyone. So yes. As unfair or self defeating (sometimes) as it seems I do.

Deaconess Jane
Deaconess Jane 2011-08-08 20:49:20 -0500 Report

We live in a thin society or, at least that's what the T.V. ads tell us. If you're not a certain way, then you're not acceptable! Bolderdash! I get so tired of being judged because of my size. I am Me and I am okay - sure I have issues and there are areas where I can grow and change but change takes time and patience. I'm doing the best I can so when I fail, I beat myself up a bit and then take my courage in both hands and forge ahead. For me, my faith in God is the anchor for my life. I know God loves me and I know He is working to make me perfect and whole. It may take the rest of my life for the work to be done, but He will not leave me until it's finished and He will NEVER stop loving me or anyone else He created.

eristar 2011-08-08 06:53:48 -0500 Report

I haven't experienced any of the stigma I have read on various conversations here on DC, and every time I come across it I wonder about it…I have only been diagnosed as T2 for about a year, but have had no problem telling people, and have had no hurtful reactions. I guess I've been fortunate; don't feel like there is a stigma at all. Either that or I have exceptionally accepting friends…But Peg, I think we all get depressed about our numbers from time to time - pretty normal, especially when they don't make a lot of sense sometimes. Hang in there! Erica

mustangpeg 2011-08-08 10:12:45 -0500 Report

Thank you for sharing and caring. This community is a God Send for me.
I look forward to reading and sharing thoughts with everyone and everyone of us are going though the same thing only different extremes so it helps in so many ways.

CArmistead 2011-08-08 03:27:38 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed just under two years ago. I've definitely never felt like a leper or an outcast. If anything, there was almost a, "well, welcome home" because so many of my extended family members are diabetic. Unfortunately, when I did finally tell my mother (and I refused to do that for about a year) my mother wouldn't listen to anything about my actual status and immediately went into gloom and doom, talking about all the terrible complications that everybody has suffered - lost limbs, lost vision, strokes, living on dialysis, you name it. I couldn't get her to stop and hear that my A1C was and remains 5.4, and that I have problems with hypoglycemia, NOT highs - it is extremely unlikely that I am going to be having those kinds of complications as long as I continue with the pattern I've established.

David Mendosa, who blogs about diabetes on another site, recently said something that stuck with me: diabetes doesn't kill anybody. All those horrible statistics they throw at you in your education classes, meant to scare you into taking this thing seriously and testing regularly and all that? They aren't stated correctly. Type II diabetes really does not kill one person. The consequences of unmanaged type II diabetes, now, those kill people. Cardiovascular disease, usually. I think the statistic they gave my class was something like 75% of all type II diabetics eventually die of cardiovascular disease. The educator couldn't tell me anything about how many of those people would have been likely to die of CV-related causes without diabetes, which is an important consideration (misused stats bug me - it's a thing).

From day to day, nobody knows we're diabetic unless we tell them, do they? It isn't too hard to do our testing in a discreet place. Yes, we should wear some sort of medical alert thing (something I need to get) - but there are some very discreet pieces of jewelry, watches, keychains, etc. out there now that don't scream "This person has a MEDICAL ISSUE!" Plenty of people choose to eat low-carb, sugar-free or low-sugar meals. There's no reason to announce, "Oh, I have to eat this way because I'm diabetic." If someone offers you something you don't want to eat because it will send your sugar out of control, say, "I'd love to, but I'm off sugar," (or "watching what I eat" or whatever) which is quite true. No further explanation is necessary.

We do need to eat on a regular schedule to avoid hypoglycemia, and to be sure that we don't become dehydrated. You can let your employer know and state that you don't want the information to be common knowledge. Simple enough. If your friends don't accept a simple statement explanation of, "I need to eat and drink regularly or I will get ill," then I have to wonder what kinds of friends they are. For family members, I do think it would be best to let at least close family members know of your diagnosis, because it is important for them to know that there is diabetes in the family.

As for daily issues, I was disabled before I was diagnosed with diabetes, so I don't really have to deal with what other people think about my diagnosis so much. My life partner was diagnosed more recently, though, and he does work, so I'm using some of what he's done as a basis for advice. As I said above, I have trouble with hypoglycemia (a lot of trouble, actually). I've had an eating disorder since my teens, at least - I'm 44 now. I forget to eat, and I'm just not in touch with my body very well in terms of recognizing the signs of hunger. That's gone on for years, and it hasn't gotten any better since my diagnosis. My daughter is off to college now, so I'm alone while my partner is at work, and have no one at home to help me remember to eat during the day, so things have actually gotten worse. (I always feel funny telling people that, because they look at me, a very fat woman, and their faces clearly say, "You? Forget to eat? That's because you were binging, right?") My eating disorder has nothing to do with binging, either.

Usually by the time I realize that I SHOULD eat, my sugar is low— it was 51 when I managed to check it once last week, and that isn't unusual. If that goes on long enough, like if I fall asleep and eventually wake up again, sometimes it rebounds and goes high (I don't understand how that works). My endocrinologist says that every time I have a low like that it's bad for my heart, so I guess maybe I could end up some sort of those complications.

I've tried using alarms on various clocks and appliances, on my computer and phone and iPad - you name it. My partner tries sending me text messages or chatting me when he can to see if I have eaten, but his work is very hectic, and he can't always stop and try to get hold of me.

So there you go - not an outcast, but I certainly don't have things down pat.

I'm still stuck on your description of a leper colony. There's just no justification for that today. The WHO sponsors getting treatment for leprosy even to very remote areas, from what I just read - I wanted to double-check what I thought was true. Leprosy is curable. I have to wonder if the priests are stuck in the pattern of living the way they have lived for so long that they don't want to change and won't accept that help? Because if the lepers were cured, the priests would have no ministry.

LabRat90 2011-08-09 09:31:57 -0500 Report

If you continually forget to eat, your body may be thinking that you are starving. That will make it very difficult to lose weight or even maintain a trim body. Be careful you are not eating too little. You're right - going too low is just as bad as going too high.

CArmistead 2011-08-14 12:30:59 -0500 Report

I know that intellectually. I tried Weight Watchers once and was shocked at how much food I had to eat in order to meet the minimum points requirement every day - but I lost weight immediately! Their program is too expensive to stick with, but it was definitely instructive.

Deaconess Jane
Deaconess Jane 2011-08-08 21:00:04 -0500 Report

>>>>>>> what a challenge you're facing. The church we use to attend had a calling service for their older shut-in members. Every day someone would call to make sure each member was doing okay. If someone didn't answer their phone, someone would go to their house and check up on them. It's a shame something like that couldn't be put into place for you regarding meals. I mainly work nights so am usually home during the day. I am the main driver for my two sons to get to work, classes etc but have my cell phone with me most times (unless I leave it on the charger by mistake). I could call you to remind you to eat if you'd like. Honestly!!!!! If your partner works, sounds like breakfast can be eaten before departure and dinner would be eaten once back from work, so only lunch becomes the challenge. Let me know if my calling would help. I'd be happy to do so.

CArmistead 2011-08-14 12:40:54 -0500 Report

Oh yes - he makes sure that I eat breakfast before he leaves most days. If he's running late, it doesn't always work, but he tries. And we eat dinner together when he gets home, but he's having to work late so many nights now that just waiting for him to get home isn't working any more.

That's very sweet of you, Deaconess Jane. I think I'm going to try to find a way to get the shelter I adopted my cat from to help walk their dogs each morning. I need to walk anyway, right? So maybe I can combine it with volunteer work helping to socialize the dogs who are in the shelter. Then I'll know that it's time to eat as soon as I get home, and I'll just have to remember to eat one other time, in the mid-afternoon. If I eat at least one of those two times regularly, I won't get nearly as dangerously low as I am now :-)

Deaconess Jane
Deaconess Jane 2011-08-14 22:20:53 -0500 Report

Sounds like a good plan. You'll get to bless others as you also give yourself the gift of improving your health. Aside from the walking I do during work (if the shift is busy), I have a hard time doing regular exercise. For a time, my youngest son and I were Mall walking each morning, but with my night work, that's become more of a challenge. I'm rooting for you and will be praying as well.

AuntieM234 2011-08-07 22:38:42 -0500 Report

I've neither felt like an outcast nor expierenced any stigma-related treatment for being a Diabetic, so I can't speak to those issues. I don't understand, though, how you could liken our situation to that of the lepers of Biblical times. They were truly outcast, shuned, stoned, even killed, with no control over their own lives. As mature adults, we have all the control for which we are willing to work. All we have to do is get with the program and eat to live; follow a healthy diet plan, test regularly, exercise as much as we are able, and do whatever else we discover will help. You have to be willing to adjust your lifeSTYLE to save your LIFE. I understand what you're going through; I've been there, as have we all! I'm responding here because I DO CARE about you and everyone here. I almost didn't respond, but I did just because I care. ;-) Mara

Teresa Rose
Teresa Rose 2011-08-07 22:59:33 -0500 Report

I agree with you AuntieM. I don't feel like an outcast. I stand up for myself if someone wants to treat me different because I have diabetes. Someone was having a shower and didn't want to invite me because I have diabetes and they didn't want to have to get desserts I could eat. When I found out I stood up for myself and told them they didn't have to buy anything special just so I could come. I went to the shower and had a great time. No one in our family has diabetes and none of our family on either side are educated about diabetes. I think alot of times when people treat you in a way that makes you feel like an outcast it's because they are uneducated about diabetes. I teach my family about it.

squog master
squog master 2011-08-07 20:41:05 -0500 Report

I have never felt that way. there are many people in my town who have diabetes including many children w/ type 1. One of my jobs was with the school system so that is why I know this. Some of my coworkers also have it. They even had it before me. So it was a plus to be able to tap their experience.

Teresa Rose
Teresa Rose 2011-08-07 20:32:03 -0500 Report

I know how you feel. I don't tell alot of people because if I do then they always try to act like the diabetic police and try to keep me from eating anything they think would affect me. I have to put people in their place and tell them that I am a big girl and I know what I can eat and what I can't eat. I fnd myself not telling most people that I'm a diabetic.

CaliKo 2011-08-07 20:07:23 -0500 Report

Seriously? What disease did they have? My understanding of lepers is that it was a skin condition that is treatable and curable with today's medicine.
Diabetes has never made me feel like an outcast. The "club" is way too big. I don't even feel alone with this disease. And we can live with it, quite healthfully if it's controlled. It is a struggle sometimes, having to be vigilant day-in and day-out, we all get very tired of it. But its a bearable cross. Here's a question. Are there more diabetics or more non-diabetics in any particular country. Or state. We can start with Texas, I'm in the Dallas area. Welcome to the DC site!

eristar 2011-08-08 06:44:17 -0500 Report

You are so right about it being curable now. I read quite a bit about Molokai (the island I am pretty sure she is referring to) for a paper in college, and was under the impression that it is now a historical landmark, marking the changes in treatment of leprosy and "lepers" from when Father Damien worked there and today. I hate to think they might still be outcasts!

CaliKo 2011-08-08 08:59:25 -0500 Report

Yes, I also hate to think of people suffering for things that are curable now. Thanks for the additional information!

RAYT721 2011-08-07 19:56:09 -0500 Report

I have never felt like an outcast being a PWD (person with diabetes), especially when I think of all of the other conditions out there for which there are no cures and no possibility for control. At least we have that control possible by arming ourselves with the ability to use diet and exercise and to consult with our medical teams for the medical side and eye on avoiding complications. Diabetes is a roller coaster disease but not life-threatening unless left undiagnosed or untreated. There's hope, there's help, there's support!!!

Marytea 2011-08-07 18:22:19 -0500 Report

Don't let anyone label you or make your feel like an outcast. You have the power to accept or reject any labels. Hold your head up high. Truth be told diabetes has probably made you healthier than those who would make you feel badly.

MewElla 2011-08-07 17:47:01 -0500 Report

It makes me very sad that you feel like an outcast…My late husband had heart/diabetes problems and I saw first hand what all he had to endure with tons of pills and shots…THEN, when I was diagnosed, I felt like I had to learn everything I could about diabetes to take care of myself..I had no one to help me and listen to my frusterations so I knew it would be up to me to get on top of this quickly. I quickly let everyone who was around me be aware I have diabetes, hoping never to be in a situation. I work very hard at my exercise, choosing the right foods to eat and testing frequently if I eat something different, am tired or stressed. 17 months later I have lost a lot of weight, feel better than ever, sleep better overall just feel so much better. But I do not take a day off from fighting it, I want to be healthy- so I am a work in progress. My friends are always looking out for me and for this I am thankful…

Type1Lou 2011-08-07 17:32:11 -0500 Report

Dear Peggy, I'm sorry you feel like an outcast. I can't say that I've ever had that experience in my 35+ years with diabetes…maybe because I grew up with a diabetic Dad and watched him deal with it every morning before he went off to work. I was 27 when I got the big D and had a challenging job that I continued to work at for the next 20 some odd years. My diabetes was another challenge to face and although I cannot conquer it, I've learned to live with it and and am trying my dangdest to control it. It's not always easy and I'm not saying I've done everything right but you have to face it, learn as much as you can, and try to make the right decisions to better control it. I'm blessed to have a very supportive husband and wonderfully supportive friends. I don't hide that I have diabetes because it's important that people around me be aware if I suffer some low BG episodes. Here's hoping the coming years give you a better experience with your lifelong companion, Diabetes.

George1947 2011-08-07 15:03:17 -0500 Report

I refuse to let anyone or anything change the way I feel about myself. I'm always going to be on top of the world and I'm going to fight and win every battle. I'm just not the kind of person to let anyone bother me with their problems!

Gwen Morten
Gwen Morten 2011-08-07 11:45:17 -0500 Report

hi mustang peg! :) I agree. I get that feeling all the time especially if i'm some where eating things I shouldn't b eating! while I have other things going on with me that makes me feel outcasted (see my post in discussions) but I get that funny look from folks when I pop a pill or check my bs, like diabetes is my own fault and i'm commiting suicide by eating a candy bar or take out! I just try to go on and liver my life as best as I can. this is my life after all. be happy as can b and live ur life!

grandmaducky 2011-08-07 11:34:06 -0500 Report

I never had denial my family had diabetes in it all the way back to great aunt that i can track so i knew that it was just a matter of time for it to catch up with me so i pretty much watch myself just not good enough i guess but i don't feel like a leper i am just different but every one of us are its just something to deal with yes some days are easier than others you just need to hang on and ride do the best u can for your self .I see you have horses well if u fall u have to get back up same thing with diabetes if u eat something that makes you go high just remember it and get back up don't feel like your outsider looking in be a insider lookin out

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