Refusing to accept my diagnosis

By CGJewel Latest Reply 2012-02-12 21:40:01 -0600
Started 2011-07-13 10:32:30 -0500

Am I the only one who refused to accept my diagnosis? I've now come to terms with it and I'm trying really hard to change my habits but I feel lost. Does anyone have any tips on coming to grips and where to start?

71 replies

GaryFB 2012-02-12 21:40:01 -0600 Report

Glad you're here to get support. Also, talk to your doctor about getting set up with a diabetic educator and class. I did a little over a year ago, as a type 2, when I got set up with my Medtronic insulin pump and CGM. I also, thru the class, exercise daily in a wellness program. It's been a godsend. But support structure really got me going.

melissa1987 2011-12-19 18:20:11 -0600 Report

I understand completely… I am going through the same thing right now. It's very hard to accept. I'm 24 and just found out 3 months ago that I was a type 1 … I feel lost and I don't know how I'm gonna accept it n move forward in my life but anyways I just wanted to let you know your not the only one I feel your pain n it sucks .. Goodluck with everything

Rozzycakes 2011-09-03 17:09:38 -0500 Report

In order to accept your diagnosis you will have to look deep inside and keep looking for years to come. You will also have to let go of some preconceived notions. I was diagnosed in December 1999. This was not a big shock since it is prevalent on both sides of my family. It was a question of when. I had watched my father's mother die early (59) and saw my great-uncles live into their eighties with diabetes. My mother's sister died at 42 and it was because she would not take care of her diabetes. I knew what was ahead of me. My biggest problem at the start was giving up the 20oz orange juices that I had for breakfast each morning. I know that we(Americans) are of a puritinacal nature and that we think we should deprive ourselves of things in order to live our lives, but our bodies don't live like that. We need moderation in our lives and food to live. So I had to learn moderation to keep my spirit and body alive. I keep processed food to a minimum. I don't deprived myself a sweet(with real sugar) now and then. This way I don't over indulge when I get it. There are great sugar-free chocolates around and, I eat them, but I don't go overboard. I was never a soda drinker, so I don't miss them, and sugar-free soda is good when I need that taste. I have taken diabetes cooking classes (highly recommneded) to learn how to cook with sugar substitutes. Use whole wheat and multi-grain pastas and not only will you eat less but the fiber will benefit your digestion. Try to get some cardio type exercise in every day and don't beat yourself up if you do not drop a ton of weight. The people on TV are not your role models and will not help your progress or weght if you keep trying to look like them. Your goal is to keep your numbers in line and stay alive. If a shot is what you need, grow up and take it. What ever medicine you need take it like an adult and make it a part of your dialy life. Work in partnership with your higher power and realize you have five senses and your god has given you the sense to know how to use them. You are not prefect and will not reach perfection on this plane, so use the gifts you have been given to make you life sweet for you, your famly, and your friends sake. In 13 years with this disease, my A1C's have gone form 7.5 to 6.3 and lower( last one in June 5.9). So far no issues from diabetes but I am feeling my age (55) and what comes with that. I feel blessed with my life and hope to live fully for years to come.

Uncle Lew
Uncle Lew 2011-08-14 22:02:38 -0500 Report

I had no problem accepting my diagnosis. I did have a problem after 14 years on oral meds changing to insulin injections. I was hospitalized with congestive heart failure and the endocrinologist handling my case broke the news to me. I refused at first but a couple days later I agreed, I did not have a choice as the oral meds were frying my kidneys.
Subsequently, at a second hospitalization, again for congestive heart failure, I met my current endocrinologist. She is wonderful. She talks to me as an equal not as a patient or a child. Talking and working with her over has made using insulin a simple, ordinary task (like brushing my teeth).
My point is you need to find a doctor who will talk to you , not at you and will listen to you and all your concerns both physical and mental.
It also helps to be part of a support group. I discovered one at a local hospital that meets monthly. In a group you meet real people with the same problems, concerns and fears as you have. Talking on line is very limited. It is so important to actually meet and talk to fellow travelers face to face. Many time it is not what they say but the tone of their voice, the expression on their faces or body language that reveals that they are just like you. Having fellow diabetics to talk to personally could be the most valuable tool to conquer diabetes. If there isn’t on near you consider starting one.
I wish you luck. Don’t abandon your on-line friends but do seek new ones in the non-cyber world.

nzingha 2011-08-14 16:54:19 -0500 Report

Just accept it…and life will become easier. I know how u feel. I have been down that road and now that I am on insulin, I'm finding it even harder to accept that…but I have no choice. Its not as bad as it seems.. its just part of the realities of life!

Hey Ti
Hey Ti 2011-08-14 16:40:37 -0500 Report

Little over a year ago, I was told that I was borderline diabetic. So I watched how I ate and did some exercised. I thought everything would be ok. Well I was wrong. I had a big eye operner. My sister went into a coma. Come to findout that it was a diabetic coma. She didn't even know that she was diabetic. So now she is taking meds. I decided that I would start checking my blood counts. For the past week my levels have been the 170's. Like you I kind of turned a blind eye to it. My mom has had it for over 20+ years. I told myself that I won't get it. Well it looks like I have it now and I need to get my butt on this and so I don't have to get shots. I am terrified of needles.

azdutchman 2011-08-14 15:47:17 -0500 Report

I remember not wanting to accept my diagnosis. But, I did because I felt it was better than the alternative would be by not accepting it. I quite likely would not still be around today, at 72, if I had not. I have had a 24 year run with my type 2 diabetes and it has not all been wonderful I can tell you. And I have not always been as diligent about watching my blood glucose levels, especially as a younger man. I could control my levels through diet and exercise. But, because of my inattention, I ended up on Insuliin. That is something I probably could have avoided if I had accepted a minor life-style change. So, my advice is accept it now. Watch your diet and get to exercising. You will be glad you did.

robertoj 2011-08-14 04:36:38 -0500 Report

I had no trouble accepting my diagnosis or changing my lifestyle because I have been in the process of changing for the last eleven years. I started by remembering that easy does it. Sharing your concerns with the DC community is a very good start. A strong support system will surely help. Getting good information may help alleviate your fears. Don't take yourself too seriously. If you turn it into a struggle you will make it harder than it has to be. Check out low carb recipes. Food that tastes good is possible. Search low carb versions of your favorite dishes. This is your life ENJOY it!

sue11542 2011-07-25 12:09:32 -0500 Report

Unfortunately there is nobody that can really help you with acceptance of your diabetes, it is a rite of passage we all must pass thru, for some it is quick, easy and painless, others of us just have to suffer through the pangs of the trial. The only thing I have to tell you that might help is that you are not alone, we have all been there and suffered through, the good news is that we are all here to tell about it and to encourage and support each other. I think the process is a little easier now than it used to be because of this site. I give you kudos and a big hug for perservering and still standing at the end of the tunnel. Hang in there and keep up the good work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lilsister57 2011-07-20 01:50:20 -0500 Report

i face the sme problem you are having now i do good for a while then it all semms useless have at times just quit ate what i wanted didnt take meds just didnt care even after being told od kidney damange. i know were not really supposed to post anything spiritual but here it goes. my tip for you is giving in to jesus first lean on him trust him and pray everyday for for strengh and giudeance to come to terms with your diabetes. this is what i have to do because he gave us this life we have and i think we should honor him by taking as good of care of our bodies as we can. i know it is really hard to do this but it works hes there for us like no other. so take a deep breath and take a step of faith. ther are some really good sites that offer ots of tips and help as well as lots of info on diabetes. the more we knopw about it the better. one site i really like is i hope tjis has been of some help but please feel free to e—mail me if i can help in an y way. small. i hope to hear from you. god bless and good luck. laurie edwards

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GabbyPA 2011-07-19 14:27:25 -0500 Report

Isn't it amazing when people share words of encouragement how much better we do. I am glad he was able to help you out that way.

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GabbyPA 2011-07-19 14:32:47 -0500 Report

Thank you!! Your story shows that we don't have to depend on our doctors and that we can lean on others in unexpected places. Many people don't realize the hidden treasure their pharmacist can be.

SweetHeatherJ 2011-07-18 11:32:48 -0500 Report

I have learned many things over my 33 years of living with diabetes and when it comes to making lifestyle modifications; I recommend "pebbles not boulders".

First a little background; when I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in 1978 the doctors informed me that I will be dead by 40 and at that time I would be blind with an amputation and most likely on dialysis. Being 8-years old, 40 seemed far, far away and yet I really didn't like the fact that I was supposed to do things I didn't want to do and the best I could hope for was an early death. I decided to out-do the doctors prognosis; I was going to be dead by 30. I sought out everything that was "bad" for me and I did it with gusto. I was well on my way to proving those doctors correct, when I finally turned my life around.

Since I had been hoarding "bad" behaviors; I had a tremendous amount of work to do. I knew if I changed everything at once it would turn out like it always did; I would be "good"(check my urine and later blood glucose levels, take my shot, eat healthy, exercise, not smoke, do drugs or drink excessively - a big old boulder of changes) for a short-while and eventually would slip back to my old behaviors once the fear had worn-off and I was back to my busy life. I was tired of feeling like a complete failure. So, the last time I tried something different.

I chose to make only 1 small behavior change, a pebble if you will. Something that I could carry around and utilize, rather than becoming overwhelmed by the huge "boulder" of behavior changes. My first "pebble" was testing my blood sugars. I wanted to do something that I knew I could do, I wanted to succeed and build on the successes rather than fall apart due to another failure.

Here's what I recommend that my diabetes mentees do for themselves: make a small change they know they can achieve, assess how it is going for them if they are confident and comfortable then consider adding another pebble and if not, then continue to work at succeeding at the thing they agreed to do. We try to avoid "failures" at all costs. With each success one revisits the cycle- pick another small and attainable goal, assess, if need be re-assess, and finally when ready, add another positive change. I have amassed so much more by making "pebble" lifestyle changes, than I ever did trying to take on a huge boulder of behavior changes all at once and most importantly, I have maintained these changes for years now and have no desire to do otherwise.
I hope this is helpful to you!

GabbyPA 2011-07-18 14:25:31 -0500 Report

I love your process and I agree so much. Setting up to succeed will do far more than setting up to fail. I like your pebbles.

jayabee52 2011-07-18 11:56:58 -0500 Report

Howdy Heather, WELCOME to Diabetic connect!

Your "pebble" principle sounds much like many of us on DC have been suggesting to newbies too. We'll encourage "baby steps" when starting out learning about diabetes (DM). Or I have at other times asked how does one eat an elephant: I forkful at a time.

Praying God's richest blessings be upon you and yours!


2011-07-18 05:35:38 -0500 Report

When I was first diagnosed w/type 2 16 yrs ago, I was in self denial for the first 2 or so years. It took me a while to form the words "I'm a diabetic" It was almost like an alcoholic going to his first AA meeting. But then I just learned to deal w/it.

tabby9146 2011-07-17 19:35:10 -0500 Report

I accepted it, and it was hard, took a few months for me, but I refuse to believe that I am ever going to be 'bad off' with it. I am optimistic and doing everything I can to stay off meds. I got off Metformin after only 3 months that was in Feb. 2009, been controlling well with diet and exercise ever since.

jayabee52 2011-07-17 20:47:28 -0500 Report

Good for you too. i am doing much the same. I came off insulin about 5 months ago and am controlling my BG with my eating plan.

tleary 2011-07-16 15:38:13 -0500 Report

Noooooooo…I was diagnosed borderline about 10 yrs ago and then diagnosed Type 2 about 4 yrs ago and only now am I accepting it…hardheaded I guess…denal is sneaky…you don't even realize it right away. Coming to grips is watching your parents get sick in their old age ad watching them decline…when I realized that it doesn't have to be that way if you take care of yourself and do all you can to stay well…I've spent 3 years seeing parents hospitalized and father die and mother lives with me (she has numerous medical issues) and up til now I felt that I was "ok"…no I'm not and if I don't get serious about myself and improving my health…I'll end up like them, sick all the time. Dad smoked and died of emphysema…mom, it wasn't her fault (her heart, she had rheumatic fever as a child)…but really, if we don't accept our diagnosis now…what is our future? I wish you well and I'm sure you'll come to grips with it soon. Take care!

mysticalrose53 2011-07-16 13:03:06 -0500 Report

I had a hard time coming to terms that I was a Diabetic as well.But working in a nursing home makes you come to terms real fast.Folks with body parts missing,being blind,and on Dialysis.not what I want.Trying my darndest not to be one of those poor folks.

June Tademy
June Tademy 2011-07-16 01:39:39 -0500 Report

Well I learned from my dear sweet Mother not to be in denial. She was and by the time we thought we were in control, she was rushed to the hospital and the next thing we knew we were talking dialysis with the doctor.Mom did not let us know about her diabetes for a couple of years and she was not taking care, so when I was told I had diabetes I knew in my heart I did not want to be like my Mom by ignoring it and I just dealt with it, it was not easy but now I am finally in control. It took a long long time and I still have to be very careful how I eat. Own it and you will handle the situation. We are here for you, and stay in touch with your doctors ask questions/ just handle your situation and you will be okay. We all have been on the road that you are on now and it is quite a journey, you can enjoy and learn from it.

lmkilday 2011-07-15 23:59:41 -0500 Report

The way I had to deal with it was to realize that of all the medical conditions or diseases I could get, I got the one which is more in my control than others and still allows me to lead a relatively normal life. I know I could be much worse off with a lot of other medical conditions or diseases.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-07-15 23:15:06 -0500 Report

Hi CGJewel,

I am glad to see that you are getting so much support here, along with a lot of good ideas to consider. One of the best ways to cope with your diabetes is to get support from people who know what it is like to live with diabetes, who can be straightforward with you but also provide with examples of what's possible. Not only surviving but thriving!

Everybody goes through their own unque process when they are diagnosed. But some of the cmmon reactions are shock and denial, along with feelings like anger, sadness, fear, and others.

Recieving a medical diagnosis is similar to experiencing a loss. When you have a loss, you grieve. And through the grief process, you adjust to the loss. A diagnosis can mean a loss of aspects of your daily life that you enjoyed and the introduction of things that are strange or uncomfortable -- new food, not being able to eat other foods that you enjoyed, taking medications, changing activity levels. Loss but also change.

Along with support, as others have suggested, it's importat to get educated. The human mind has a way of filling in gaps in information with assumptions, and these assumptions can result in fear. Find out what you working with here, wha this diagnosis is going to mean. It's better to know than not to know.

It's okay to feel sad, frustrated. It's normal to ask "Why me?" There isn't an answer to that question. But asking it, and talking about it, is one of the steps toward accepting your condition. Again, back to that grief process.

Be patient with yourself. Change is a process. When you run into setbacks, ask for help from your healthcare team and get advice from other members. This will help you to find your way to your own self-care routine.

I am glad that you have found your way to Diabetic Connect. You have lots of support for the road ahead.

Stay in touch!


EJMac 2011-07-15 15:50:33 -0500 Report

It's not fun to have a serious disease, but ignoring it for long may cause you more problems later on. I know it's overwhelming at first, but it does get easier. I would suggest you keep a food diary for a couple weeks including amounts and talk to your doctor about it. Like everyone says, thi really is an individual disease-we are all different. I'm on insulin now after 4 years and I thought that was the most terrible thing in the world. Actually , it seems much easier to keep the blood sugar stable. For me, I had to limit breads, pasta, potatoes, rice-all the white stuff. I have very small amounts or the blood sugar goes high. Best of luck to you on your journey. We all reap what we sow.

Gimpalong 2011-07-16 00:18:02 -0500 Report

Well said. I've had diabetes since 1992. I've been jouraling from the beginning. I continue to do so, so I can keep track of any overall changes in my BS's so that I can correct what I am doing wrong with foods. It also allows me to see what I am doing right. Good luck.

jayabee52 2011-07-15 15:57:23 -0500 Report

Good to see you posting Elaine, how are you doing?

EJMac 2011-07-16 20:44:11 -0500 Report

Thanks jayabee52. Camphosting at Farragut State Park in Idaho this summer. It's in the boonies so we have to go a ways to use the phone or computer. Back to the dark ages. Don't even know what's going on in the world-that might not be too ad. Trying to sneak a peek a the posts quickly.

jayabee52 2011-07-16 22:55:31 -0500 Report

we'll be glad when you can be a regular here again. But I expect it is very beautiful and serene there. And I usually can go for days without knowing what is on the news. Sometimes the news gets one all upset over something we can't do anything about anyway. Sometimes it is better not to know.

Kinn D.
Kinn D. 2011-07-15 08:45:02 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed at six and was pretty cool with it then, but as I got older I started hating it. I stopped doing everything I needed to and ended up in the PICU.

dfinch 2011-07-14 19:47:56 -0500 Report

I think we all refuse to accept it at one time or the other. I accepted it and then denied it when my BS was under control. Stopped checking my BS and started eating what ever I wanted again and gained back all the weight I had lost. Then my brother, who is also diabetic, was told by his DR that if he didn't get his BS under control he would have to go on insulin. That was my wake up call, I do not want to go on insulin. I hate needles and don't think I could give myself a shot. So, I am losing weight and eating right and my BS is much better. Now I just need to work in the exercise. I know when I was walking all the time before, I felt so much better and had more energy. So I am looking forward to cooler weather so I can walk again. Good luck and just keep working at it. You will do fine.

mustangpeg 2011-07-14 17:11:37 -0500 Report

You sound like me, I was in total denial and probably still am a little bit and it's been 4 years. It is so hard but being able to vent and talk to others that feel the same here has been a saving grace. Try to take one day at a time and think about the changes that our coming for us. My Dr. says that we probably will see a cure in our lifetime but the costs will still be high. Something to hope for. Try to surround yourself with friends and people who love you and say a lot of prayers. We all love you here.

Armourer 2011-07-14 14:09:59 -0500 Report

I've had diabetes for 13 years, and this year I've finally accepted (well almost). The first few years I fought the diagnosis like crazy and now I'm suffering from the effects of that denial. Check the numbers daily, make the adjustments to diet, and stick to it!!!!! The big drag of it all is this disease is soooo expensive! I wish I had made the adjustment so much earlier cause I now have bad neuropathy in my feet and hands, and retinopathy in my eyes. My fear is that in a few years they will be chopping off limbs and I will be blind. So make the adjustment now and stay off the various problems as long as possible.

Calvin Fish
Calvin Fish 2011-07-14 13:48:41 -0500 Report

I also basically refused to accept my diagnosis, I am still trying to come to terms with it. The medicines that were prescribed to me have improved all of my numbers but something does not agree with my liver. So now I'm on a mission to eat better & exercise and by doing so I hope to get my medice either reduced or stop taking most of it all together.

GabbyPA 2011-07-14 08:57:08 -0500 Report

Dealing with a chronic diagnosis is often compared to dealing with the loss of a loved one. We go through a grieving process and denial is a normal part of it. Anger, sorrow and eventually determination to move on are also part of it.

Being here and getting involved is a great way to get things going. Taking one step at a time is the way to proceed. I would talk to your doctor and find out what he wants you to concentrate on first. Or choose something for yourself. When I was first diagnosed, I focused on my diet and getting rid of junk food and the high carb foods I ate all the time. I would build on those things and make a foundation that I can return to later (because I know I will always tend to fall back to old habits)

Testing is a good place to start. Writing everything down in a journal is another good place to start. Start with something easy and build on it to make sure you are also building your confidence.

Kim Gregory
Kim Gregory 2011-07-13 23:54:26 -0500 Report

You are not alone. I don't think I have completly accepted my diagnosis yet. I was diagnosed with type 2 Nov 4, 2010. It has been 8 months and I still struggle with it. I am the only one who has this in my family. There is no family history of anyone having diabetes in my family and I was just shocked. High blood pressure runs in my family but I don't have that.

pkwillhoite 2011-07-13 23:21:18 -0500 Report

I am glad you are here!! I know exactly what you mean.. It took years for me to come to accept my diagnosis. I have had Diabetes since 6/05 and ust like 9 months ago I started to really take better care of myself. It will come and the learning is never ending. This is a really good place to get to know what you need and should do… I wish you the best and I will keep in touch with you!

jayabee52 2011-07-13 20:06:48 -0500 Report

When first officially Dx'd it was kinad of anticlimactic. I had been reading about Diabetes and its symptoms and I noticed that I had the big one: the being thirsty all the time. I also worked in an ER as a CNA one night, and they had a urine dip test for diabetes, so I took a quiet moment and tested myself. From the color the strip turned I was in the 300 range, though I didn't really know what that meant. I didn't have medical insurance then, so I put off going to the Dr. But once we did, I went and the Dr confirmed what I already suspected. I was a person with diabetes. I don't know what my A1c was, as I wasn't aware that there was a thing as an A1c reading.

But the fact that I already "knew" that I had diabetes, didn't keep me from going into denial a time or two. I probably have many of my diabetic complications from the time I put off getting Dx'd and the times I was in denial.

MrsCDogg 2011-07-13 19:45:12 -0500 Report

I had no problem accepting my diagnosis. My mother was a bad diabetic so it was just a matter of time for me.

CGJewel 2011-07-13 19:48:59 -0500 Report

See, I'm the only one in my family with it. And due to issues with my adoption, I have been unaware of any family history.

CGJewel 2011-07-13 19:42:48 -0500 Report

Thank you all for the support! When I signed up I was so nervous to post this, but I knew I couldn't be alone. It's only been 3 months of denial for me, and I just realized I have got to get on top of this thing now, I have a beautiful little girl to push forward for. Again, thanks for all the support and welcome wishes.

Harlen 2011-07-13 19:14:18 -0500 Report

Hello and welcome
It just takes time and hard work
You have started by coming here.
Best wishes

CGJewel 2011-07-13 19:37:51 -0500 Report

Thank you! I hope to make some friends here who can help me find all the information I can on this disease. I want to beat it, not have it beat me!

Vann'a 2011-07-14 02:09:50 -0500 Report

It is kinda hard to beat, but i have a friend she is on a half of a pill now because she walks 45 min a day and cut out all of her sugar intake, and watch what she eats.

Now for me i am still trying but i am still on 2 pills a day.

Harlen 2011-07-13 19:41:36 -0500 Report

You can't beat it but you can live with it lol
Feel free to ask me anything and if I dont know the anser I can get it lol

cottoncandybaby 2011-07-15 23:02:42 -0500 Report

That is true- can't beat it but we have to learn to live with it…this has been a tough week for me, as my teen age daughter has been going to a "chocolate camp", held at a wonderful upscale chocolatier store (just walking in the front door, and smelling all the chocolate, makes my numbers go up!). Each day she brings home tons of chocolate goodies, a diabetic's nightmare…ok, I had a few in an "out of control" moment, but so hard to resist. These are the times when I hate this disease the most…will have to go back to my boring Smart Carb vanilla ice cream for my sweet tooth..

tabby9146 2011-07-17 19:38:28 -0500 Report

I had a delicious brownie at VBS this week. I love being able to eat chocolate and things I love like that once in a while.

cottoncandybaby 2011-07-17 19:59:33 -0500 Report

I do too. We just have to remember the "once in a while" part! That's the hardest part, but that's why we are all on here, thank goodness!

Harlen 2011-07-15 23:43:26 -0500 Report

You are forgiven I am so glad I am not in your place
I hope it dont last to long lol lol
Best wishes

cottoncandybaby 2011-07-16 10:29:35 -0500 Report

Thanks, Harlen! I finally decided to put all the tempting chocolates she made in the freezer in the garage, so at least it won't be so tempting if I don't see it! Why are all the yummy things we want, the ones that we can't have?! LOL!!

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2011-07-13 17:14:31 -0500 Report

I tend not to fight facts. 3 blood test over 3 months proved it to me. Now cooperating with that diagnosis is something different. Still working on the food end and thinking more about working on the exercise end. doing some, but won't get real serious until cooler weather comes.

tabby9146 2011-07-17 20:16:52 -0500 Report

I still need to work on the food part, as great as I am doing, I eat too much processed food. My husband thinks I am too strict, LOL, no I am not! It is hard to find a lot of organic food where I live. I do eat lots of veggies, especially fresh ones in the summer that is one of the few things I love about summer are fresh fruits and veggies that are my favs. It is way too hot where I live, our summers are brutal.

CGJewel 2011-07-13 17:20:08 -0500 Report

I'm glad I'm not the other one who prefers working out in cooler weather!

tabby9146 2011-07-17 19:39:55 -0500 Report

I am on the treadmill and low impact aerobics in the summer, will not work out in the heat. When it gets cool, I love to go on long power walks, walking fast, and on the beach too is a good workout. I love how the cooler weather energizes me, but where I live, it won't be cool until Oct. and even then, we will have warm days too and our weather doesn't actually get cold until Dec.

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2011-07-13 17:26:54 -0500 Report

Even walking in this heat can do me in. It can cause, like today, my BS to drop 50 points in 30 minutes. Plus if it is for any distance, like from the camp lodge to the gym (about 1/4 mile, uphill both ways, as in a very steep hill) I need to have 4 bottles of water, one in each pocket and a sweet treat. Remember, Reese's peanut butter cups melt in your pocket!

CGJewel 2011-07-13 19:40:55 -0500 Report

I live in a large college town, and I do lots of walking to the grocery store and to run errands. I feel so awful by the time I get somewhere because I'm covered in sweat and feel like the smelly kid in class! I'm looking forward to cooler temps because heat and humidity are my enemies.

CaliKo 2011-07-13 13:13:22 -0500 Report

As my CDE said, "Denial is a lovely place, but don't stay there too long." I always recommend a class led by a Certified Diabetes Educator. Your doctor should be able to help you find a class, available at most hospitals, and enroll you so your insurance will help pay for it. It's a great place to start, to learn about what you need to do and why, drugs you may have someday, complications to watch out for, personalized meal plans and how and why to test. You'll learn how to count carbs, which carbs are better choices, the importance of exercise, and set some goals for your personal situation. Good luck.

sue11542 2011-07-13 11:02:50 -0500 Report

Hi, CGJewel, you are far from the only diabetic who refused to accept their diagnosis but thank G-D that you have come to terms with it before it is too late. My husband was a diabetic for 20 years that we knew of. He never came to terms with the diagnosis, thought that if he didn't do his blood sugar and didn't see the numbers the problem didn't exist. He would come home from work with candy wrappers in his pockets which I would find when I did laundry. We would then argue about his eating candy and end up yelling and screaming about it. After almost 18 years of all this nonsense he ended up in renal failure on dialysis. I guess I shoul have kept yelling and screaming. I couldn't understand why he refused to use one of the 3 blood glucose meters he had and when I asked him about it he told me that he was having his blood sugar checked at work, he was a med. tech. Come to find out he never had his sugar checked at work or anywhere else. He had multiple surgeries as a result of his diabetes, surgery on his face, on his hand, and the biggest one, four toes removed from one foot. Even though I had threatened that if he started loosing parts due to the disease that he could control I would leave, I never did. nothing phased him, not the surgeries or going on dialysis. Before we got married he had been diagnosed with glaucoma, and his pressures were now out of control as a result of his diabetes and he ended up having to have surgery for his glaucoma. Surgery went textbook and a few days after the surgery somehow he got a lens ulcer that would not heal. On the contraty, his lens just "melted" and he lost his vision in that eye, the other eye was none too healthe either so he was in effect blind, that was the beginning of the end and the last straw but still I did not leave. When he died at home I ended up doiing CPR on him to no avail. This is a true story of a man who was unwilling to accept his diagnosis. I was diagnosed with diabetes 2 years later. I am again attempting to bring my sugars under control.

fraejo 2011-07-13 20:32:45 -0500 Report

I'm sorry for your lost, but your story points out the danger of denial. My neighbor's granddaughter had diabetes and no one in her family knew. She hid it from everyone. She had been overweight and when the pounds started to drop she told them she was on a diet. It wasn't until complications set in that her family discovered she had diabetes. No one else in the family had it either. She ended up having her arm amputated and died a week later. She was only 18.

camerashy 2011-07-13 19:33:56 -0500 Report

I only stayed in denial for a year, but then doctors started ganging up on me, and that was when I finally said OK, I'm going on insulin. Having been diagnosed when I was 16, and being in control by not eating and by excersing lots, I never thought it would get completely out of control. The afternoon I was given my insulin and test kit, I went home and cried long and hard, after which I accepted my condition and started trying to learn all I could. I've always been one to roll with the punches, but this punch sort of knocked me off my feet for a while.

Jim Edwards
Jim Edwards 2011-07-13 17:45:04 -0500 Report

Sue, I read your post and I will give you one guys view of it. This is not a criticism, but just a look into what may be part of the male psychic. As a guy, telling me I have to do something, yelling at me to do something, makes me want to not to do it just to show you that you can't boss me around. This has nothing to do with your love for him, your caring for him or anything else. I think it is programmed into us. Yes, I know it is stupid, but when it comes to our own health, we are, at times our worse enemy. Maybe it is low self esteem that did him in. Maybe he did not care whether he lived or died. My wife and I have had disagreements, like when I eat a bowl of ice cream. Sometimes it is comments, sometimes nagging. I point out my "bowl" of ice cream is in a custard cup, making it about 1/2 cup. I don't eat bad with any kind of regularity, but every now and then i eat something that I want, but should not have. I do not eat my pre-diabetic portion, but I do "indulge". We have worked some of this out in that the meals that she prepares are fairly diabetically friendly. Now she will cook baked potatoes, but she knows if my sugar is wacky, I will not eat it. Now she does not take that as an offense to her meal planning or cooking. We both know that this is "my problem" and I am the only one that can ultimately control it. In the beginning of dealing with the big D, I use to sneak candy or treats, just like a little kid. The only person I was fooling was myself. So grab your diabetes by the horns and let it know who is boss. Hopefully when your time comes to pass from this world, you will see clearly and have all of your toes! Thanks for taking the time to post your story. MEN, will you women ever figure us out? lol

CaliKo 2011-07-13 13:06:06 -0500 Report

Some people just won't take care of themselves, even though, as a med tech, he should have known better. You can't make someone else do what they need to do, it's kind of like watching an accident happen when you are too far away to help. I'm sorry for your loss, and sorry you are having to deal with the same disease now. Take care of yourself, and live the healthiest life you can. Good luck.

CGJewel 2011-07-13 11:17:55 -0500 Report

Thank you for sharing your story with me. I hope your personal journey with this disease is easier than your late husbands.