Im losing it...

By Tristan9008 Latest Reply 2011-06-28 21:31:06 -0500
Started 2011-06-18 04:31:49 -0500

I just dont know what to do anymore… im 21 and I have type 1 diabetes. I feel like giving up… not only do i have type 1 diabetes I am horrible at controlling it… I have a court case for a serious crime coming up that will mess up the rest of my life… all my dreams and aspirations, all because of being at the wrong place at the wrong time… I am in school working towards a mechanical engineering degree but it all seems pointless. I will never be able to find a job after my court and the job that i have now i cant stand… I am a bartender who always gets the worst hours only making around 200 a week… and i live with my girlfriend and her 10 year old son and it kills me because i can do nothing to contribute to their life financially. My car is about to break down and i am our only source of transportation, i have no money for an alternative. Everything in life is coming in on me and i just cant take it. My life has be crushed.

12 replies

Poppop1961 2011-06-28 21:31:06 -0500 Report

I know how you feel. I got hit with diabtetes in 1999 and just turned 50. I was in the hospital last month with a level of 1017. It's hard but don't give up.

MAYS 2011-06-27 19:57:27 -0500 Report

The beauty of this community (DC) is the support that we offer one another.
You are a vital link in this strong chain of support!
Give us a chance to show you how much we all care for you, here's my shoulder, my hand and my back whenever you may need it!


gbc43 2011-06-27 19:47:05 -0500 Report

You take care of the little things and the big ones will fall in to place .
Our support group leader is a T1 , she been that way from childhood.
Things will get better .

dietcherry 2011-06-19 22:01:12 -0500 Report

Hey Tristan Im sorry youre in the situation youre in. Please please take care of your T1 The good choices you make today will determine your good health tomorrow. Lots of folks are struggling financially right now because of the economy but it doesnt mean things wont turn around someday.
Stay in school and when you go to court let the judge know that youre young and you messed up but youre trying to make a better life for yourself and those that depend on you. Say youre sorry and ask for the courts mercy.
A criminal charge only shows in the county you are charged in so you can go to a neighboring county for work and hopefully they will only pull your record for the county the business is located in. This is the way most companies operate. Very few companies pull a state- or nationwide criminal search so this does not have to haunt you the rest of your life. I will pray for you and your family Tristan :)

Sonya Slim
Sonya Slim 2011-06-19 06:30:03 -0500 Report

You will make it through this! Everything below is great advice! When I start feeling this way…I remember this quote: "There are no short cuts to any place worth going." — Beverly Sills My niece has type I and she horrible at controlling it too. However, she is being force to make better choices. She has a 9 mos old and one on the way in September!

AuntieBear 2011-06-18 23:35:23 -0500 Report

Out of control blood sugar can really play hard on your emotional well-being. Work at getting your diabetes under control. There is a point to working towards that mechanical engineering degree. . . it is called A BETTER LIFE! Keep fighting for it. You deserve it! As for your sucky bartending job just keep the following in mind. 200 a week is better than no money a week and it will help a little bit until something better comes along. Just don't give up. That 10 year old kid is watching how you handle stuff. He is also looking up to you. You may not have money to put towards taking care of him, but you can teach him right from wrong and many other things that will be very hard for him to learn without you. Youcan also teach him the most important lesson of unconditional love. As for the court thing, do you have any kind of a lawyer to help you out? If the lawyer can't get your case thrown out or a not-guilty verdict, then what about lesser charges and a plea bargain? See what you attorney can do for you. In the mean time, take care of your diabetes and your family, refuse to surrender to defeat and keep working at that better life. It is there for you, you just have to go after it. Let me know how you do.
Take Care,

Truckers home
Truckers home 2011-06-18 22:47:58 -0500 Report

keep your head up. I know how it feels to have the walls fall on you. I'm once again pulling myself out of the hole. I haven't had it that bad but I was put on workerscomp for a shouolder injury and being off the Truck I drive for a living killed my bank account. I was just released this past monday and Im really stressing over the bills, and my other half only works part time and pays half the bills but it still isn't enough.

All I can say is things do get better in time but it takes hard work. Good luck!!!

Teresa Rose
Teresa Rose 2011-06-18 15:14:33 -0500 Report

I just want to say that all the advice that you have been given here is great advice. Trusting God in your life, being straight with the judge, having a positive attitude. Yes, keep going to school & keep yourself straight and do your best to follow the advice that you have been given. No matter what happens it will work out for the best. I have been through so much in my life & many times it all seemed hopeless but it always worked out for the better, even if I didn't think so at the time.- Wishing you the best!!!

Louri 2011-06-18 15:06:47 -0500 Report

I used to make the wrong choices of friends and it cost me dearly. I used to blame my childhood issues and wanted to just give up and not give a d*mn. There came a point in my life that made me realize that no one can change the path I was on but myself. I learned to deal w/ the "consequences of my actions". I turned my self-pity and self destructive attitude around. I may not be rich, have the best of everything, or have my "dream career", but I am HAPPY! I have become a caring, loving person with a very small group of people that I love and trust! I know that I am the only one that can change things for me. It took me several years, but it can be done. You just have to be ready to make those changes and accept responsibility. Best of luck to you in your journey to self enlightenment!

realsis77 2011-06-18 13:40:46 -0500 Report

Hi. I'm so sorry to hear what's going on. My advice is to stay strong and trust God! I've been in some seriously hopeless looking situations before and what I thought would just be the end did pass! I've had trouble with the law and just had to face the concequences, do what the courts wanted and believe or not even this passes with time! I know what its like to have a judge decide your future. This is when I looked to God.God did see me through all of it! Now its in the past and I'm a stronger person for what I've been through. Sometimes we have to do things that are not comfortable for us but you are young and you do have your whole life ahead of you no matter what it seems like now! Trust God. Do what you have to do to satisfy the courts. Then put this in the past! There was a time I had NOTHING and trust me please I know how you feel. It seems hopeless no matter what is done but its NOT! Give this to God and you will be suprised the strength he will give you to get through this! Once you get through it move on. Don't ALLOW this to ruin your life! Believe it or not. It is up to you! Please be strong and move foward and NEVER let anything get in the way of your dreams! They might get delayed for awhile while you have to do what you must do but they will always be there waiting for you when your finished! Pray for strength and God will see you through this rough time! Better things are waiting for you on the horision I promise! Just don't give up! NEVER give up! Trust me I've been through soo much in my life and many times I've felt hopeless. But if you look to God he will see you through this and when its over you will be stronger and more capable of achieving your dreams! I promise! So hang in there. It won't be easy but you CAN do it. Remember faith makes things possiable NOT what ever your facing, just face it full ahead and then move foward to build a better life. With God all things are possiable! God bless you and stay strong!

Harlen 2011-06-18 11:46:29 -0500 Report

That is a hard spot to be in ,I know I have ben in some that make this look like a dream come true .So what did I do ?????
Well let me tell you the end of the story even now I cant spell lol
I am 48 years old and retired .
There comes a time when a man needs to be a man stand up for what you do right or rong work work work for what you need and what you wish to have there are no short cuts in life its hard work and being a stand up man is even harder.Face what you have done and be streat with the judge They have herd it all so be streat with the judge keep going to school shaw that your working to make things better and you will never ever ever step over the line again and you may just may get a 2nd shot but if you dont be strate they will know your full of it and nail you to the wall.
I started working a lot and when I saved up some cash I started working for me over the next 20 years I worked hard like 120 Hr a week I gave up all the crap I was doing and just worked hard and stade out of things I didnt need to be in.
after a shot time I realy got to like doing it ,
Get you BS inline and keep it there that will help you make good choises in life as well.You are yung and I will tell you the same thing I sed to my two boys
you think you know all the ansers and you do ,you just dont know all the questions.
Life is hard and you only get out of it what you put into it.
Best wishes and if you ever need to talk feel free to right me any time

I realy feel for you and what your famly is going thru

GabbyPA 2011-06-18 07:33:45 -0500 Report

I once got a challenge by a stranger when I told them that my life situation sucked. I was not going through as much as you, but for me it was the same feeling of hopelessness. She turned to me and said "Why did you SAY that?" I told her because it was true. She said that she knew it was true, but why would I give the situation power by affirming it. She told me to stop saying things like that and draw in positive power.

At first I was mad at her for saying that. She didn't even know me. But after I got over that, I tried it out and wow....things turned around within the week. I was totally amazed at what was coming out of the wood work that was GOOD. Did it fix everything? No. But it gave me new hope.

There are things in life we cannot change, but we can always be the one in control of how they make us react and live our lives. You have a lot of challenges ahead of you, that is true. But you are young and you have a lot of fight in you. Sit down with your girlfriend and talk about how you feel. Let her be the one to tell you how she feels about your life together. You just might be surprised.

Get your degree and start your own business. You don't have to work for anyone, and you again, might be surprised at how many will overlook a conviction of youth, That is IF you are even convicted.

Life may be trying to crush you, but you can be the can that is filled with concrete, looking vulnerable on the outside, but not budging an inch under the pressure. We are here to help you out.

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