encouragement needed;

CarolynSgr
By CarolynSgr Latest Reply 2011-06-08 09:46:39 -0500
Started 2011-06-05 12:47:03 -0500

YUP, feeling sorry for myself today!!! with my over weight, OA in knees, back, hips, feet. Diabetic pretty new on that one, Figromyalgia, Fibro Fog, Dpression, High blood pressure. I really wish just one day no pain, just one. I am on Metformin, Metoprolo, Neurotin, Wellbrutin, Nortriptlyine, Losartan, Prozac, Omeprazole. Percocets. I feel i am a walking pharmacey. If I still hurt this bad, I cant imagine the pain I would be in with no meds. Other wise I am just GREAT, not. ={ :)


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Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-06-08 09:46:39 -0500 Report

Hi!

I am sorry to hear that you are dealing with all of this right now. You are a part of the most supportive community on the planet, and it's really important to have lots os support when you are facing so many challenges. So stay in touch with us!

My thoughts are with you!

Gary

appealstome
appealstome 2011-06-07 05:45:34 -0500 Report

I know the feeling having been there, done that and sympathize. You may want to read Drug Muggers by Suzy Cohen. Some of the medication you take decrease vitamin, mineral, etc levels in the body and replenishing them may help you feel better. She also wrote "Diabetes without Drugs.

Trudie Ann
Trudie Ann 2011-06-06 01:06:59 -0500 Report

Sometimes I get sick and tired of taking pills but I know I have to. I also have a long list of medical problems.
I am retired on disability due to my medical conditions. The people I worked with would look at me and snicker and say theres nothing wrong with her. Shes just limping to get out of working hard. And so on and so on, until I did have to retire. Then a few of them called and appoligized when they realized I did have problems that they couldn't see.
Yes sometimes I hurt so bad that I can barely stand it, but you can't give up. You have to fight with all your might. The alternative is not something I'm not willing to let happen.
But hay vent all you want to. We all need a place we can go and vent where others understand us, and this is it. We will vent and cry right along with you. We will also pray for you and offer any advice we can.

Harlen
Harlen 2011-06-05 21:50:23 -0500 Report

Wow that sux big time
But you know that it can be a lot harder a LOT harder
I have lived through things that have killed most all that whent through the same thing /Busted back in three places ,shatterd right leg and yes I live with pain too every day . So I know what your going through .Sometimes I get down too.
What works for me is to think how bad it can get and to know that I am still here and far from real bad I am .I have a drend that will never eat again neve have sex never be able to even go to the bathroom again And he smiles every day he just got a pump for a woman that was unable to get a new one after hers quit working .there are 1000's of storys just like this one .They are not hard to find.
Talk to your Doc they may be able to take you off some of your meds there are so menny that will do two things at the same time ,
Know that you can vent here any time .
Best wishes
Harlen

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-06-05 17:31:03 -0500 Report

Oh, yeah Carolyn. I understand where you're coming from girl! The temptation for some of us is to do a one-upsmanship — kinda like "You think you got it bad, girl, but get a load of what troubles I got"

I don't want to minimize your feelings. In fact I do want to encourage you. I am sorry you're feeling like this. Please feel free to vent as you feel the need. That's part of what we're about here on DC. We understand because most of us are in the same boat as you are.

I note you have a lot of "medical challenges" as my beloved "Jem" used to say. You can find people to guide you and comfort you here on DC, and on other communities. There are communities for many of the conditions you mentioned. Look at the black band at the top of the page and select "visit another community". There will be a list of communities available drop down. Select one (or more) of them and use your DC log in info to join them. (I myself am a member of several of these communities )

I pray you find here on DC and in the other communities the encoragement for which you seek. I've been here on DC the better part of 3 years and I have found a rich source of information, encoragement and support, and sometimes the needed kick in the pants to help motivate me to control my diabetes, instead of it controlling me.

I pray God's richest blessings be upon you and yours.

James Baker

realsis77
realsis77 2011-06-05 15:12:50 -0500 Report

Sometimes I feel like a pharmacy also, I take two different insulins, thepholphine, water pill, mscontin, perstique, ablifilfy, singulair, nuvigil, I know what your saying. Hang in there. We all have bad days. Try to focus on the positive things that helps me a lot because you can't think of negative things when your thinking of positive! I hope that made since?? We all all here for you. Do something for yourself today that's positive. That also helps me out. Take it easy and just enjoy the day. Push out those bad thoughts! God bless

Gwen Morten
Gwen Morten 2011-06-05 13:53:25 -0500 Report

Hi! I know the feeling about taking alot of meds. Some days I just refuse to take some and of course I pay for it later I get to feel for just a minute that I'm "normal". I say try to lighted your stress by meditating(something I still have not perfected but get lectures from my boyfriend about doing!), praying, aroma therapy and good music. The music really helps some days especially when I don't want to have to explain to the man in heaven why I cheated on my diet again. LOL! As an overweight lady as well I just want to say I hope you get over your blues and try to take it easy and enjoy your life everyday one day at a time!! :)

AuntieM234
AuntieM234 2011-06-05 18:04:15 -0500 Report

Dear Gwen: If only your boyfriend could walk a mile in your shoes. He can't know, though, the extent of your pain. Then again, some people are just selfish and don't really care how anyone else feels. I don't know which category he falls in, but I know it isn't easy for you either way. I feel for you! ;-) Mara

Nica0226
Nica0226 2011-06-05 14:37:55 -0500 Report

Yeah, I know the feeling. When your drug list when leaving from an ER visit is a full page and they did not add anything, and you still feel awful every day, you have to ask yourself is there anything better out there, or anything more I could take that would make me better. Then you get day when everything seems ok, not a pain factor 9 with meds, not a depressed or manic feeling in sight, blood sugars are good, why do not I just put the TV on and watch some TV, and pet the cat, oh why not get something to eat, those cookies look good, back to the tv, drink some hot chocolate or chocolate milk, rest and relax the day away. only to my husband come home, and ask me what I did today. Saying all I did was pet the cat, and switch TV stations makes me feel guilty with him having been gone for the past 14 hours. The high I now have is hitting, and my temper is getting ready to explode, the pain that barely noticable that morning is raging when I get out of bed, and coming full at me is that depression or manic episode that will last weeks because I skipped my morning drug doseage. I have days, I pity myself, today is one of those days, then there are days I want nothing more then to be active and be doing things as long as I know the closest bench, chair is to sit and relief the pain. I hope you feel better. Know there are others of us like you out there. Best of luck.

AuntieM234
AuntieM234 2011-06-05 18:20:46 -0500 Report

If only your husband could walk a mile in your shoes! You need to try to develop some self-discipline, though. I'm about to add a post in a little while that may assist you some. ;-) Mara

orangeflower
orangeflower 2011-06-05 17:03:02 -0500 Report

hi Carolyn, suffer from depression to and I feel that makes everything else seem so much harder. I don't do so well in the wintertime but i'm doing better now that finally we are seeing the sunshine. I try to walk around even if that's just around my house. Yes i'm also working on my weight slow going there. Had to learn a few hobbies like crocheting etc. to keep busy. I have a bad back so I have to be careful with what I do, but in the summer I swim and it feels wonderful to my body and I get some badly needed exercise. I have two little dogs and three cats that keep me company. My husband who puts up with all my quirks, Love to talk to you anytime. Sharon.I

CarolynSgr
CarolynSgr 2011-06-05 18:32:13 -0500 Report

Hi Sharon, this depression can really be hard, even more so when your boyfriend cant understand just how you feel inside, tho he very understanding, but some times he will say something so minor and it hits me the wrong way and right away I think ok when we get home I'm just going to take all my pills and be done with it, but it hasent happend yet. **Summer is beautiful, but I really do prefere the winter. I love the coldness, the white, its just seems to peacefull. In the eigthies I moved from Oregon to Minnesota and I just fell in love with it. Didnt last long moved back home. **My better half have lymphodema badly in his lower exstremities, so Im the one who does all the running…I mean limping around… UUUUUUG. **I have one dog and cat they both drive me nuts. You can talk to me anytime.

orangeflower
orangeflower 2011-06-07 05:34:34 -0500 Report

I know if someone hasn't had it they really can't understand. I'm better than I was they put me on a different medication that seems to be working I can at least function leave my house and see people now. I remember just feeling like I was down a dark hole with no way out , and no/one could pull me out. The first meds. just made me feel like a zomby yuk. But I still get those days I have to try to control my emotions, because otherwise I just want to run and hide from the world. Sounds like you could use a little help around the house running errands? I live in Pennsylvania to go anywhere is a drive so I have to group my errands up which exhausts me. The diabetes has been fairly new just getting use to it and reading my levels and all, i'm on Meteforim (and so far so good). I couldn't sleep this morning so i'm up going to make coffee and then later see my high point of my life my grandson—- He's a darling and 20 months old I have a ball, we read tons of books . Well i'll sign for now thankx for listening I be looking forward to talking with you again. Sharon

Gimpalong
Gimpalong 2011-06-06 18:03:15 -0500 Report

Carolyn, I'm so sorry that you're having so many life challenges. The depression and Fibromyalia can be hard to handle. When I get up in the morning, I try to put a smile on my face, just to see if the muscles are still working there. Then, I try to stand up. I can talk out loud because nobody can hear me! LOL I tell my knees, ok what is it to be today, going to walk or go face first in the carpet. I know these things sound silly, but if these things happen when I'm out in public, then I'll be better prepared to laugh at myself on the outside, and crying on the inside from the pain. If people are laughing at me (or with me), then it is taking the burden off someone elses shoulders. I know that the pain can drag a person down, and it makes the depression worse, but at least I'm still here to enjoy my family and friends. I'll be praying that you can find ways that work for you. Life is hard at times suffering from life challenges, but if we have friends like on DC, it helps a lot. Also, many have unique ways to handle the challenges. Have you tried pain management, or massages? Accupuncture has helped me also. Take care of you, and I pray that you will find a way to communicate with your family about how you really feel. They won't know if we don't try to make them understand, or else pinch their little heads off. LOL I don't know what to tell you about your cat and dog. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. God bless.

Big hugs and prayers,
Nancy

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