self pity

By Shellie46 Latest Reply 2011-05-30 01:45:08 -0500
Started 2011-05-28 13:01:46 -0500

I find myself feeling sorry for myself quite often. I am taking better care of myself and have a friend/co-worker who has been helping me be accountable for my choices. But I don't like that I have to make these "healthy choices". I want my comfort food back. Even though I've lost some weight - I still want my carbs. I know this is so wrong… I just … I don't know. I hate being diabetic. Being overweight… I have a wonderful family that I want to live for. I also don't want anymore complications. But dang~~~~~ice cream sounds good!

17 replies

Trudie Ann
Trudie Ann 2011-05-30 01:45:08 -0500 Report

Nobody likes being diabetic. We all get down sometimes but you cant let it keep you down. I love to eat, I love food. I never had to worry about what I ate before diabetes, so it has been really hard for me to adjust to the limitations I have now. It does get easier, and DC is a place you can go for questions, answers, and to just rant, rave and cry. I will cry with you, and I will also pray for you.
As far as comfort food, there is always alternative cooking available. Check out some of the recipes here. I like frozen yogurt. It took me a long time to get used to sugar free cokes or anything, I switched to 1% milk and now that I'm used to it the whole milk doesn't taste good. You said you have a wonderful family to live for, that is a great plus for you, and now you have a new family at DC. We know how you feel, we have all been there. Always do your best, thats all any of us can do. Enjoy your family. Study and learn all you can about diabetes, that will also help.
But Dang I wish I could have a death by chocolate brownie sunday. So I guess I'll go get me a little frozen yogurt and a sugar free chocolate cookie.
Take Care & Eat Safe

DJackwon 2011-05-29 22:49:00 -0500 Report

Agreed, it isn't an easy walk, and there are ways to plan to treat yourself; I was diagnosed T2 3/3/11. Petrified, clueless and ran across the family of DC. Welcome by the way. It does get easier, does it make me hate being a person with diabetes? sure! We can't be upbeat all the time, and thats when it's good to express it, we have all been there. We share the good and the bad. But I know when I sign on here, I have a place to ask questions, a place to share the plus's and minus's going on, and a whole lot of encouragement from our family here. This too shall pass and I will add you to my prayers, that each day becomes a little easier and that you will continue to learn how to live with this and even enjoy life.

- Debbie - 2011-05-29 22:02:23 -0500 Report

Hi Shellie, yes, I completely understand where you are coming from and since loosing weight and making healthy choices is hard, it is a choice of how bad you want it. I started out at about 375 lbs, and after 11 months on the diabetic diet I lost 160 lbs, I know it is hard believe me, I would cry sometimes, because it is so hard to do this, but it is a lifetime change and if you take little steps at a time, you will get used to it, and sooner or later you will feel better and then it will become your new habbit. I always felt like I had had this cloud over me all the time, and McDonalds was my best friend, but then I soon began to realize if I wanted it bad enough, only I could do it, and to be honest I got sick and tired of being laughed at and feeling like that on the inside, I was so determined to loose it or else, and I took it one day at a time, but I did it, and of course I can not take all the credit because I have to give God credit first because I prayed allot and cried allot as well, but I wanted to do it for my kids and I just had to make that decision to be healthy or not, and I choose to be healthy. It will take dedication, but do not push yourself too much, and just take it one day at a time, it is not easy, but I am proof that you can do it, I have faith in you, if you have the determination then that will help you through the tough times, also if you have a positive outlet like church or a friend whom can help you when you are weak that also helps. It took me 11 long tiring months to get it off, but lots of hard work and faith in myself along with excercise I finally lost half of me, I know you think it is impossibile but turst me you can do it, and I am rooting for you, and for someone who has never been in our shoes they do not understand how much you feel like you are giving up, but actually you are giving up so much more if you don't loose it, do not give uop on yourself because you will never know what you can accomplish if you do not try, making the first step is always the hardest, but once you take that first step the you can take another step and then another, and who knows what you will be able to accomplish if you just try. Besides it is not where you start that matters, but is is where you end up that matters! If you need a shoulder to cry on or just someone to talk to, I will be glad to share some thoughts with you, and just know that everyone starts somewhere, and here we can rely on each other for support, if you need my support you can count on me, I do understand how you feel. I hope you will reach out to me or someone if you to talk, good luck!

My name is Susan and I would like to be your friend,

Thank you in advance,

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2011-05-29 17:39:34 -0500 Report

Last week I discovered I could make milk shakes that don't spike my BG. I have a little soft serve ice cream maker (makes 1 serving). With diet root beer and a little cream, a little splenda and a dash of vanilla to taste my annual Spring craving for root beer floats has finally been met. With diet cook, cocoa powder, splenda, vanilla, and a tiny bit of marraschino cherry juice the old fashioned soda craving is satisfied. Neither spikes my BG.

nanaellen 2011-05-29 12:50:26 -0500 Report

I hate being diabetic too!! Absolutely positively unequivacally HATE it!! Sounds like the only difference between you and I is that I get angry, I don't feel sorry for myself!! And MMMMMmmm Choclolate Ice Cream!!!!! Please believe I know EXACTLY how you feel!! LOL I'm not a newbie to diabeties either just new to trying to get control! All I can say is don't give up it IS seeming to get easier!! Good luck to you! Ellen :)

jayabee52 2011-05-28 23:39:53 -0500 Report

Well,Shellie, you are a person with diabetes ("PWD") and to live a healthier life it is a matter of adjusting yourself to your "new normal", as diabetes is relentless.

The quicker you adjust to that, the better things will be for you complication-wise. I didn't and I suffer from several painful, debilitating and potentially deadly complications. I didn't have my head in the game. AND I didn't have the information and social support which I have gleaned from places like DC.

I started out on oral antiglycemic meds. Eventually I was switched to insulin in the hospital for chronic Kidney disease. But after being on DC for a while every day and paying attention, I finally came to realize that I am on what may be considered a "baby dose" of insulin. I decided to experiment on myself to see if I could keep my Blood Glucose numbers ("BG#s") in the "normal" range with a restrictive eating plan and any exercise I normally do. I have kept my BG#s in the normal ranges for a little more than 1.5 months now without using insulin. To be sure diabetes is still lurking in my body. If I go off my eating plan for some reason, I will have a BG# in the upper 100s to 200s. But my pancreas seems to be putting out insulin, although in smaller than normal quantities.

I have been losing weight too. At the end of 2010, I was 215 lbs and climbing. Now in May 2011, my weight was about 175 lbs. Losing weight also helps my body to be less resistant to insulin.

So you can feel sorry for yourself, but don't wallow in it. Feel it, and then move on.

There's a news article which was posted recently which shows some carb heavy "comfort foods" and suggests alternatives to lower your carb intake. Check this out:

Blessings to you and yours


PS: My carb load is low enough, I allow myself an ice cream cone every 2 or 3 days. I checked it out with my meter, a "drumstick" type cone only raises my BG#s 30 points. My BG#s are rarely above 130s, (unless I really fall off the wagon — but then I DO GET BACK ON ASAP!)

Harlen 2011-05-28 19:54:18 -0500 Report

Hello and welcome
We all feel or have that feeling from time to time .
After 5 years I still feel that was from time to time .
With so menny things that we can't do anything about this is one thing that we can to help keep us well.
Best wishes frend

AuntieM234 2011-05-28 16:34:14 -0500 Report

Hang in there. Your reaction isn't unusual, but you it will get better. The more you learn about your alternatives the better you will feel about the choices you have to make. Tender Tips reply is right on track! Good luck on your journey!

Tender Tips
Tender Tips 2011-05-28 16:10:53 -0500 Report

Shellie: I think that has been the hardest part of diabetes for me-not being able to eat whatever I want whenever I want. That darn inner child in me! Some days are harder than others. What helps me is to plan for a "treat" every day-just build it into your carb allowance. Then I savor every bite of it! And backing up what others have said-just reminding myself of how much better I feel when I follow my plan and also distracting myself with other activities. Good luck!

melissa5786 2011-05-28 15:57:22 -0500 Report

It's not easy adjusting your entire life. We've all been there and said the same things. You just have to remember that you're doing this for your life and as you continue to do it, it will get easier.

Find something to keep your mind distracted. Do you have any hobbies or interests that you can spend hours on and not get bored?

And you can have your ice cream and eat it, too! Just be wise of the portion. Plan out meals and put them in writing. I find that by doing this and putting down how much of a serving I can have, I won't over eat.

Find fun recipes for your old comfort food favorites and make a big deal about preparing them. I never realized how much fun cooking was until I became a diabetic.

realsis77 2011-05-28 14:13:22 -0500 Report

Hang in there! I've found that I actually feel better if I stay on track! I think of the alternative and that's the complications of blindness, limb loss, kidney failure, ect and the thought of this helps keep me on track!! I also will feelsorry for myself at times thinking why do I have to take these shots "poor me" but then I think of what I'm greatful for and I usually snap out of it! I am greatful that diabetes can be "controled" unlike cancer . So as long as we care for ourself then we can hopefully avoid the complications. Have a great day and God bless

dmax32 2011-05-28 14:03:33 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed in 2008 and I have felt the same way… everything in moderation don't deny yourself your favorite carbs just limit them to 1 day a week… And continue to count your carbs even on those days.. i rev=cently took back control of my diabetes 4 weeks ago. I know the frustrations and hating the limit you need to put on yourself~ You can do this!

T.J. Purdy
T.J. Purdy 2011-05-28 13:17:46 -0500 Report

I know what your going through. I was there also. But what I do is bury myself into my hobbies. I've learned that keeping my mind off of food and unto something I like doing I don't have that problem. I know it's hard but you have to think of the long term goal. Don't let Diabetes control your life. Take it back and fight it head on. Support here and your family is very important. Use them.

Shellie46 2011-05-28 13:12:10 -0500 Report

except I'm not a new diabetic. Have been diabetic for 16 years. But have only recently started taking it seriously.

MewElla 2011-05-28 13:05:23 -0500 Report

There's probably not a diabetic out there who has not said the same things to themselves. It is not easy to adjust to the new lifestyle, but impretative to do so. Good Luck to you.