Re: Chill Out blog

By Anonymous Latest Reply 2011-05-12 09:44:04 -0500
Started 2011-05-03 10:09:43 -0500

No you are not going to be OK. You will never, NEVER, be OK again. This is a life of constant denial, constant fear, constant worry, constant vigilence, constantly watching the weight, constantly watching how you exercise. You cannot even go for a simple walk around the block. You can never eat one thing again without injecting yourself of taking a pill. You cannot eat what you want, when you want or even if you want. You cannot go to bed when you want, get up when you, go out anywhere, eat out anywhere without all the constants. There is no upside. there is not one iota of good about this curse that has destroyed my life. So don't try and sugar-coat ANY of this

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LabRat90 2011-05-12 09:44:04 -0500 Report

I think once your new habits are in play and you don't have to think about what you're doing every minute, things will start to get more positive for you. I hope so anyway. You may also what to make sure you're not depressed or see a doctor if you are. It goes hand-in-hand with diabetes diagnosis.

roshy 2011-05-10 18:37:57 -0500 Report

you sound to me as if you havent had diabetes for that long!! ( i know what your thinking, any amount of time is long enough) but when you live with the condition and learn to accept it the anger will eventually fade and you will hopefully gain a better perspective on life. anger and resentment will get you nowhere positive in life!! its important to vent but staying this way will only do you harm. you need to find a way to cope with your condition with a better attitude!!

But the majority of people dealing with a condition like this have felt this way, i know i have and the feeling does eventually pass. just try and stop dwelling on all the negativesn theres alot more to life!!

big momma 10
big momma 10 2011-05-12 08:04:43 -0500 Report

I am sure at some time or another I have been very angry. I spend 2004 getting all kind of health problems. 1 I was told I needed a Pacemaker, right then and there. No time to think, without it you going to die. I did panic or cry, my family just lost it, I didnt. I tried to be strong for them. then knee surgery, Find out I am a diabetic, congested heart failure and etc. I took myself out of the pic. I didnt go anywhere except to the doctor, had 3 surgery. didnt want to see anyone, I just stayed home waiting to die. ! day I realioze that whatever was going to be it was going to. I needed to live until I die, enjoy my family especially my grandbabies, after making that decision it was on and I havent stop living since. I am going to enjoy this life, do what I need to do and have fun doing and baby believe me I do. Peoples stop me all the times, saying you are always smiling, you are so happy and friendly. everywhere I go I leave a smile and good feeling.
I know we all handle our illness different, give it a try you might like it. Lrt go of the anger it is only making it worse. find joy!

jayabee52 2011-05-12 06:09:22 -0500 Report

well said roisen, well said!

roshy 2011-05-12 08:16:46 -0500 Report

i thinktheres a deffinite proccess everyone goes through when they live with diabetes! its a bit like the mourning process!! firstly theres denial!! everyone knows what that feels like!! then theres anger, which can last a very long time, and sometimes never goes away! if it is resolved then life can be a much more optimistic place!
then theres bargining!! i think we all said something like this " if i just enjoy myself this year il be much better next year!!" that can go on for a very long time!! but as someone else said, theres no point in kidding yourself!! then theres depression!!

"oh my god, this disease is goin to be the end of me"

as i said before, if you try your best with living your life with diabetes then at least you will live your life knowing you tried your best!

and then finially theres acceptance!! its here, its not going away, but hey ill make the best of my life while i can!!

I know everyone deals with their own condition in an individual way and we can sympathise with you however going on with a constant darkness over your head will defeat you before the diabetes will!! go talk to someone who can help!! you anger at the moment is almost like a poison!! you need to sing a different tune for your own sake!

Best of luck!

RAYT721 2011-05-03 14:37:51 -0500 Report

I believe that attitude is very important when it comes to control. I will die of something but I am not going to force complications and further illness on myself with a "give up" attitude. I have to disagree about the insulin or pill-popping because I am on neither. I have listened to my doctor, listened to my meter, listened to my body and listened to my inner voices that encourage me to keep on going towards the happiest and healthiest person I can be. No sugar coating here … just the facts, maam … just the facts!

granniesophie 2011-05-03 11:16:32 -0500 Report

Don't kid a kidder-you are making this so much worse than it is.
No one is sugar coating anything, just living their lives. We all have the same disease, and we all manage it the best that we can. We all go out, we all have fun, we all eat.
Yeah, there is stuff that's not fun, but you deal with it and move on. We all deal with it and move on.

My advice, put on your big girl panties, go out in the world and live your life.

Come here and vent, and for advice, whatever, we are all here to listen and help when we can, we all need a little help now and then, but, as I said before, don't kid yourself, you have to live your life, you are not going to die tomorrow, go outside a take a walk and enjoy what you see.