My mom has been telling me to push for a pump. I've tried but my doctor isn't always the most agreeing. Every time I bring it up, I get excuses: I'd have to take a class on that, pumps aren't for Type 2's (I take insulin and am now dependent on it), I'd have to do calculations (okay, so I'm not the greatest with numbers, but, last I heard, they invented calculators), it'd be a lot of work/hassle, it's expensive (so everything else, but after the ankle surgery, I should be at my maximum or whatever so NOW is a good time, hello?), and the list goes and on and on.
I take the bus and it's hard to find a bathroom along the way. It's not convenient (the nearest bathroom at the major bus depo is a Chick-fli-a, which is closed on Sundays), the bathrooms aren't always the cleanest, and even when I have to use the little girl's room really, really bad (I have a hyperactive bladder), I don't stop because that's an extra 30 mins to an hour added to my day. That and I have a bad ankle which makes walking long distances next to impossible, so when I go to the store or whatever I make sure I am going to that place and that place only.
I've been told it's okay to take shots on the bus (hell no) and I'll usually just strip down in my cubical, expose less flesh than Brittany Spears, but only then having to cap the needle or whatever if a researcher comes in for help (I'm a librarian) and having to remember to take the shot later (I have ADD, so these sorts of days are always fun). The bathroom is down the lobby and down the end of the hall (a long walk for me these days) and the medical room isn't always available. When I get my ankle back up and running, I'd like to go back to biking and hiking. It's sort of hard to take an insulin shot in the middle of the woods. I don't trust the needle to go through my clothes, especially in winter with the many layers of thermal, as one nurse has suggested, and I hate taking shots in my arms (also not always convenient of a spot to take shots). Needles give me bruises and in order to hide the bruises, I have to give myself shots in inconspicuous places. I'm sort of over people thinking I'm some druggie for shooting up with a needle but, frankly, I don't care - it's just that it's not a good idea when you're on a train.
My mom says it'd help me with my anxiety and remembering to take my insulin. That I won't have anxiety attacks and worry about if I have to time or whatever (I have a crazy schedule and, due to the nature of my job, sometimes the patron comes before the lunch).
I keep bringing this up to my doctor, but only to get shot down each and every time. Is my mom wrong? Am I wrong for wanting a pump?
I'm thinking of going behind my doctor's back, calling up the pump people and asking for doctors in my area that are willing to give me a pump that are covered by my insurance. I feel bad about this, though - like I'm betraying my doctor's knowledge. On the other hand, I really could care less about what my doctor thinks - I had to literally fight to get insulin. She kept trying to push expensive oral meds on me that were only making me sicker and, now that I have been on insulin for over a year, I can actually EAT and not having blood sugars (the starvation diet really was a pain but it was great for losing weight!).
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