I am a 33 yr old woman who was diagnosed with diabetes less than a week ago. I also have alot of other health issues. I have stomach issues such as GERD and CHRONIC GALLBLADDER DISEASE. In Nov. 2008 I had my second HEART ATTACK and ended up having a DOUBLE BYPASS. Along with all of that I have HYPERTENSION, HYPERLIPIDEMIA, KIDNEY AND LIVER issues. Most of all I have a severe problem with DEPRESSION and STRESS. To the point where everyday is a struggle to keep the thoughts of not want to be alive any longer away, which has tripled since my diabetes diagnoses, simply for the fact that I do not feel the same as I used to. I work in the medical field as a cna and I love caring for those who need my assistance. For the last few weeks I have been having this feeling like everything in my body goes I guess I would say numb. From head to toe and it happens everytime I move in the slightest way. It only last a second at a time but it makes me confused and with the feeling that I am gonna pass out. This feeling has made me unable to work because I dont want to hurt myself or anyone else being so unsure on my feet. When I recieved my accu-check meter I immediately started to do the 360 view to try to understand what is going on with my sugar along with eating, exercize, and rest. It seems to not be so bad I haven't had my sugar go over 257 and not lower than 78. But I still feel like crap with the same confusion. I try to eat several small meals but have a hard time because of my stomach issues. I have no energy and I am more frusterated and depressed than ever. My job used to be what kept me going because no matter how bad everything was when I went to work I could stop worrying about me and try to help others. It gives me a great feeling inside to know that I am making a difference in someones life. But now I am scared to go to work in fear that I am going to hurt someone or myself. This is the first time that I have ever opened up and expressed what is going on with me to anyone since my mother passed in the middle of all of this in Aug. 2008 from breast cancer. I am lost and drowning quickly from all of these issues. I am tearing apart my relationship with my significant other, because she tries to help but doesn't understand how stressed and confused and afraid that I am. I feel so helpless and it is not a feeling that I like at all. There is so much more reguarding medical insurance bills and everything else but what I really need to know is? How to feel better so I can go on with my life and do what keeps me going everyday. Why am I not feeling better even though I have changed my diet and paid attention to my daily bloodsugar levels? Is this crazy numb, and confused feeling ever gonna pass?
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