What I feel as being a diabetic.

Johnben or JB.
By Johnben or JB. Latest Reply 2011-03-28 11:36:49 -0500
Started 2011-03-27 17:13:31 -0500

Just want to have a bit of a talk with you.

That's right, I does! I don't post that much anymore, probably because of the way I feel healthwise. Sometimes my life seems surreal, having all those health hickups from time to time! Sometimes I feel real bad when I'm overcome with all my troubles. I'm sure you all have that at times especially the older ones. But then I kick myself to return to my usual optimistic way of looking at things and so there I go again until the next time something bad makes me to wish for a better life. I just had my left eye operated on for cataract trouble.
Should be happy that I would see better, right, well, with my luck it looks very much as it was the way before the operation. But I still drive the car without wearing glasses, something that may well have to be changed before long. I sometimes read about newly diagnosed diabetics with expressions like "I cannot live this way!" I quite understand what they feel, have been there, done that!
However tomorrow I alway find that there is another day with the birds singing in the morning and flying around like mad with some material to build their nests. Life seems to go on regardless of how I feel! So I feel that once again I should join the birds except flying around, just would fall on my face trying to do that.

Some time ago I wrote something that I kept because I feel that while it would help many, it also helps me to read it again.
It was called "A Walk in the Park." I will print it here for you again, I'm sure you will like it!


You may say what does that have to do with diabetes? Well, it did for me, having a lot to do with diabetes.
You see, it was very quiet there in the park and the sun was painting the different colors between the trees and branches and on the leaves many of which were only just starting to grow. I came to think, how it was possible for those trees to year after year produce everything new and fresh. Some trees grow hundreds of years old and keep on producing as against us humans who may do so for a very short time. My painters eye saw all the different colors of green, a multitude of greens, darks and lights and all kinds in between. The birds were singing their beautiful songs and I was mesmerized by their variety and volume without another human being anywhere near.
So why do I tell you all this?
I tell you all this because of the marvelous feeling it gave me, because in spite of having diabetes for 50 years and on 5 needles per day , 8 blood tests per day. More complications and just having had a stroke that paralyzed my entire left site, the consequences of which I’m still struggling with, I was still able to observe all this beauty that nature wanted to show me. It would be far better not to have diabetes, but because of the diet I live on for all the years, I’m not overweight because that could be a source of other troubles, one benefit and there are probably other benefits as well.
Then I had to think of other people with cancer and arthritic pains and a multitude of other aches and pains and diseases and also mentally like Alzheimer’s disease and I suddenly felt myself rich and lucky to only have diabetes and my stress lifted away from me. I still could see and hear all that was going on in nature and it was plain marvelous that I could, where others simply couldn’t even get to where I was. So I guess what I'm trying to say is, that other people's problems can be far more difficult to live with than our own.
So whatever problems you and I may have try to look to the bright side, remember the cloud with the silver lining?

JOHNBEN.Nov. 2010
On the lighter side…

Moe; "My wife got me to believe in religion!"
Joe; "Really?"
Moe; Yeah! Until I married her, I didn't believe in hell!"

2 replies

realsis77 2011-03-28 11:36:49 -0500 Report

Thank you for sharing that wonderful bit of inspiration! You truely are an inspiration to us all! I truely hope you will be feeling better soon and I look foward to reading more of your postings here! You are so right! Sometimes it helps to stop and smell the roses! God bless you and take care! Hope to hear from you soon!

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2011-03-27 22:54:32 -0500 Report

Thanks for sharing your wonderful remindier of how much there is to be grateful about. It's Spring again. Every moring there is a little Sparrow singing his beak off outside my window. I have missed you JB.
My husband agrees with Moe.