Diagnosed just 3 days ago during physical. My blood sugar was 356. My doctor just told me to get a diabetic consult lined up. I did, but it is 2 weeks out. I got testing supplies yesterday. Last night my blood sugar was 388 then first thing this am it was 340.
I told my husband and a close friend. I do not want anyone to know. I do not want to be judged.
From my mid-teens until I was hit head on by a drunk driver, in 1984, I ran 5-10 miles a day. My neck was broken, my pelvis crushed, my unborn son was killed, both of my legs had compound fractures, my R foot crushed. I had 37 operations over the next 9 years. I am lucky and blessed. I learned to walk again. I have a 30% disability. My infant daughter suffered fractures in all 3 bones of her left leg, but is fine now. I was able to have other kids, truly a miracle, I have twin daughters and a son.
Over the years I have gained weight but it has been exactly the same for over 6 years.
Then the summer of 2007 2 of my kids and I went to visit my parents. On the way home from the airport we were t-boned by a flat bed tow truck. The only part of my body without lasting pain, my left leg was crushed and my ankle dislocated. 3 surgeries and a year later back to battling pain, and a roller-coaster of emotions.
Never a thought about any health issues, orthopedic problems and now this.
I did not want to tell my family. I feel I will be judged for my lifestyle. Overworked, stressed, bad eating habits (coffee or sweet tea all day, most days only eating dinner after 9 pm. And I hate water.
With my permission my husband told my parents, they cannot understand why I don't want to talk. I am so overwhelmed and just cry. I do not want them to worry. I told my sister and told her I did not want her to tell anyone. After asking why, she told me at least I can control it with diet and exercise. If that were true, I would not be overweight for the last 20 years. I have not been able to exercise as everything causes pain. I then cannot sleep which also makes everything worse.
I have taken a variety of meds including heavy duty narcotics. I alternate drugs and when my pain is below average I don't take meds and just Todd & turn all night. I am fearful of judgement, fearful of exercise, fearful of increasing pain, and the need for more meds, which could result in possible addiction.
I just start crying, in the middle of a store, sentence, etc.
How do I find the right professionals to help me? Maybe my biggest fear is I can't be helped.
I was a gymnast, then coached high level gymnasts. This included keeping them, thin. I had a diabetic gymnast and worked with her so she could maintain safe levels and win.
I cannot possibly do any significant exercise. I do not even know what numbers I am trying for?
Next Discussion: When to test »