Being LONG TERM Unemployed & Stressed

Fotog Diva
By Fotog Diva Latest Reply 2011-03-31 09:46:34 -0500
Started 2011-03-16 16:14:18 -0500

It's been about 3 yrs 3 mo, I have no unemployment,very little if any $ from my freelance business. I'm a Type I of 35 yrs, I have no medical insurance but go to a clinic were all the medical staff is volunteers were I get my meds thru PAP Rx Assis). Other than that I have no formal or the main stream medical coverage.

Emotionally I'm aware I'm struggling & at some times just barely care. I care just enough to wake up most days, lately get on my laptop & do some hse work since we've moved.
I'm a liquid nutritional type of person - Juice, Soda some H2O, etc. Don't like much solid food until my eve meal. Know I need to eat less of some of the sweets & candy I do but - SMH *sigh* lack of $ & Ppl that can help is a B*@!h.

Do me one favor - do more than just sympathize with me on this. That I've had enough of, it doesn't help. Ask "How can I help?" or "What can I do to help?" I'm not here to look for much sympathy, very little empathy & NO pity! don't want to be told how bad it is economically - that varies depending on ea. others skills & abilities.


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Fotog Diva
Fotog Diva 2011-03-31 09:30:48 -0500 Report

Thank God for the photography it keeps me from going to that "Dark space" of wanting to die. I haven't made any $ from it lately but did btr last yr. I haven't had unemployment since '08 - they don't allow for you to EVEN work Ur own business even if it's FREE =o - SMH. The whole ideal was to generate enough $ from the photography to have fuel $ to look for work. At least U have the unemployment even if U don't have a vehicle!

I get Food Stamps so I don't have to worry about that & I live with my Mom. She has a program were she gets food & other hsehold items from at the 1st of the month.
I do have a vehicle but I struggle to keep fuel in it b/c my Mom didn't learn how to drive. Dealing with issues with my driver's license b4 my B-day on 4/10 - a wk or so from now.

I never feel so bad not to take my insulin. I go to a clinic were the medical staff volunteers their services & has a PAP program to order my meds.

What I don't understand is how come U haven't at LEAST applied for food stamp assistance were U live. Next research online for the Rx assistance but U have to be under a Dr.'s care - they send the meds to the Dr.s Ofc.

OH BTW I'M STRUGGLING JUST NOT TO THE DEGREE U ARE!

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2011-03-31 09:46:34 -0500 Report

Like you I have experienced that "Dark space." Never want to end up there again. Photography helped pull my husband out of his time in "Dark space".
My state sometimes offers bus tokens or fuel assistance while you are on food stamps if you are unemployed. It's part of a special program. But they exempted my husband and myself. It gets so frustrating to be in the I need to look for a job but I need a job to get the money to look for a job. He has had three jobs that lasted a 2-3 months each in the last 4 years. I have only been unemployed for 1 year.

wrmjw1
wrmjw1 2011-03-17 10:41:29 -0500 Report

I understand your problem. I also have been out of work for 3 years. My unemployment is getting ready to run out and much like you, I go to a hospital where I can get supplies for cheap. I also have been diagnosed with depression. I also had an incredible appetite for candy, as well as pizza. I havent touched them since I became a diabetic. Thats the best idea I can give you, just quit the sweets. The whole not caring thing I understand that as well. One day I felt like dying so I just stopped taking my medication, no insulin, no other medication no nothing. I lasted for 3 days before my kidneys started to hurt. Sometimes having somebody who has been in your shoes helps a little. I also have house work to do, I was sharing a house with my sister and her family, she moved out in January, now I have to pay all of the bills as well as get my diabetic supplies. Most days I feel like killing myself. I'm not really sure what gets me out of bed in the morning. I do though. my sister was telling me about trying to get free diabetic supplies. Ive been searching for the site itself but I havent found it yet. The only site that I found was Liberty Mutual, they work with Medicare. I also have a question for you, I just wanted to know if you have a car or like me you have to catch a bus everywhere? Im just trying to let you know that youre not that bad off, you could have my life, Im 37,broke, alone I dont have a car. I dont even have my drivers liscence. Plus I have really messed up teeth, and I cant afford to get them fixed. I dont pity you, at least you have a freelance business, if you dont have to report it to the unemployment office thats extra cash in your pocket. All I have is unemployment some weeks I dont eat because I dont have any food in the house or the funds to get food in the house. Youre not struggling, youre just having that moment where you are fed up with your current finnancial state. You said that "we moved", does that mean theres somebody else with you or what? I'm just curious to find out. Hopefully you'll reply back to me.

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